Hello everyone. Just thought I'd do a little post to let everyone know how I'd doing. To be honest, I'm actually a little depressed at the moment. There were a couple of developments earlier this afternoon that have made me ask myself about where my life is going. I mean in the short-term I have some goals for the future. For instance I'm currently pursuing a certificate in library science. But I never really think about the long-term too much. I keep falling into the illusion that my life is always going to be the way it is now and that nothing will ever really change. Today though, I've ended up asking myself about where I'm going and if certain things will have to change.
As I'm sure a few of you reading probably already know, I've become quite the fan fiction writer. I know I've mentioned more than once that a link to my profile on FanFiction.Net can be found on the introduction to this world. But one of the questions I've asked myself today is, how long am I going to keep writing fan fiction? I'm not saying I'm thinking of quitting the fan fiction scene, as I have absolutely no desire to do so. Yet at the same time, there's a part of me that knows that it can't last forever. I certainly can't make a career out of it, but then of course I don't do it for the money. Right now I've mostly been wondering about how long I can keep it up.
So tonight I spent over an hour taking stock of all my various projects. I did an assessment of all my ongoing multiple story projects and single story projects, not to mention stories that haven't even gotten out of the idea stage and may never will. And it just seems that odds are I won't be able to finish them all. Somewhere down the road, circumstances may force me to withdraw from the fan fiction scene, so to speak. So this assessment I did was to see if some of my projects were really worth continuing at this point. Because there are actually some projects that I haven't worked on in a long time.
The thing is that the art of fan fiction seems to have given my life a bit of a purpose, not that it's my entire life of course. But I am a writer, and fan fiction stories have been the only thing I've had the inspiration to write for the most part. In a way, I've sort of been doing fan fiction since I was a little kid. I'd make up stories in my head involving my favorite characters from T.V. and comic books, and eventually I started to do the same thing with anime characters. It wasn't until a few short years ago when I finally developed the patience to sit down and actually write some of those stories. Right now though, the questions I'm asking myself right now though are, will I be able to move on from this particular field of writing if forced to by circumstance? And are some of my fan fiction stories really worth continuing at this point?
Anyway, sorry this post got a little heavy. I just needed to get some of this stuff off my chest. Until next time, here's another Yugo & Rin pic I found on zerochan to lighten the mood.
