Why?
Why me?
Why do this to me?
Why not any one else?
You could have done this to some one else
Any one else but me
I stand here in shock
Because of what I see before me
Are dead bodies
Dead bodies of my family and friends
I fall to my knees
I can barely breathe
I feel like I'm the verge of going on a killing spree
I'm so angry
And yet I'm so...so...sad
I don't know what to do
I just sit here and stare at their dead bodies
I can't conjure up enough strength to stand up and walk away
I don't ever want to leave them
Never
I can't leave them
Not like this
I feel a lump in my throat
But it doesn't seem to register in my head
I just sit here
I feel like I've been hit by two semi's at the same time
The pain I feel is beyond compare
I don't know how anyone can stand to feel it
Especially me
The tears I've fought to hold back are now flowing like never ending rivers down my face
God why did this have to happen?
Why did they have to die?
I don't understand
I want them back
Give them back to me
Don't take them from me
I love them so much I can't afford to lose them
Not now
Not ever

I'm still sitting here when I hear you approach
And I'm still crying
I'm crying so hard you don't know what to do
You don't even know how bad I feel
YOu don't even know the pain I feel
It hurts so much
I feel like I should have died too
But that wouldn't solve anything
It would only make things worse than they already are
And yet it would allow me to be with them forever
In a place of peace and of pure bliss
I'm still crying when you kneel down next to me
You try and comfort me
You try and tell me everything's going to be okay
That I'll be okay
I look at you while I'm still crying
And ask 'How am I going to be okay?'
You don't answer me
I look away and keep crying
I feel som much pain and sorrow
That I don't know if I am ever going to be okay
Without the people I loved and hedl close to my heart