Conversations with myself, never go as planned. I always feel like i can't even be honest with myself. Honest with my own feelings. I wonder if i am the only person who feels that way. Sometimes i keep myself from feeling at all, which hurts nonetheless, i guess in a sense I can't escape my feelings. As much a i try. There is no use crying, but all the pent up stress and rage gets to me after a while. What to do, what to say, how to feel, In some situations i just go quiet. Empty, like a shell. What to do, what to do.....