GUUUUHHHH.
Angsty lengthy brooding post ahead. Sorry, just have to gush this out before I burst and actually yell at someone.
Okay. So this morning I was gonna go volunteer at a little event held every first Saturday of the month for autistic kids, and I was really looking forward to it. But apparently someone had lowered the volume on my alarm clock to near-zero, so I didn't wake up on time. Neither one of my parents bothered to wake me up - and they were supposed to give me the ride there. WTF? So I felt REALLY terrible for saying I would show up, then didn't. Plus the event coordinator was short-staffed today too.
And then the accumulation of two weeks' worth of three people's laundry (my stepdad, my mom, then my BROTHER who for some stupid reason changes like three times a day and dumps EVERYTHING into the laundry) gets dumped on ME, courtesy of my darling mother. *slaps self* So after waking up late, freaking out and getting pissed off over not getting to go, feeling terrible for letting the coordinator (and myself) down, I waste three effing hours of my life folding other people's clothes.
And to top that off, I have about five hours of homework to complete today, another five hours tomorrow, plus commishes and stuff to do. Plus I have to bathe and groom my dog, and he hasn't gotten brushed in like three weeks and even after ONE week it takes like an hour just for brushing him cuz he sheds SO MUCH and GAH!!! *pulls out her hair*
School isn't going any better. I'm in the full IB program, which is kinda like having all AP classes. I've been up to my neck in homework and staying up till 2:30 to 3:00 in the morning finishing it after volleyball practice, or worse, games. Practices are two hours every weekday we don't have a game. For games, we have to be there at about 4:00 usually and don't get back home till after 9:00, since we have to watch/cheer for the varsity team. And what really pisses me off is that there has to be something wrong with me because everyone else is handling the workload from IB so much better than I am, even if they are playing a sport. 
Even IB art is a bitch. I HATE that class. At first the teacher said that we had to write/sketch/draw up THIRTY pages EACH WEEK in our "IWBs" (investigation workbooks). So that's like...fifty hours of writing about our "inspirations" and "experimenting" with different medias/techniques and writing "notes" on them - notes that end up having to be huge, drawn-out, repetitive sentences in order to fill up those pages. Thank GOD she lowered it to 15 pages once she figured out that no one could do thirty pages in the first week-and-a-half of school. It's still a lot of work though. And it's not even art. It's just repetitive writing.
And all this stress is growing and growing, so I've been eating a lot more even when I'm not hungry, so I've put on a little weight, and that's not helping at all with my stress problems. Then there's piano and then I need to figure something out for these SAT classes my mom's making me take then signing up for the ACT and SAT then stressing over whether or not I'm gonna be able to make it onto club volleyball in November (probably not; I've tried twice before and failed both times...plus I hardly get any playing time at all on our school JV team since I suck) - which I HAVE to make because I've given up like all clubs in order to make time to do it...Then I also want to run for ASB president for next year, which is a loonnngg ways away but I still freak out over it because like NO ONE knows me, so it'll be extremely hard to get it.
Hence my inactivity recently. Soooo...sorry.
On the bright side, Spanish and Business Law are super easy and I rarely get any homework from those classes, the classes are hard so I'm actually enjoying myself and learning stuff, and I just made $80 off of babysitting my brother for four days while my parents were out of town. And I went to the football game last Friday...even if we got slaughtered.
*gives you a cookie for reading this much*
*gets back to history notes*
*gets yelled at my her stepdad for going on the Internet and not doing homework*
Luvs and hugs,
RH
