Uuuuwwwaaaa.
I hate boys. 
So. Our school's holding a dance with a neighboring school next Friday. Guess who asked me to go with him?
Yep. The German dude (I seriously need to think of an online name for him...XD). So I guess that means that he's finally "made the 1st move." I already told him yes, but pretty much only because it was in the moment, and my friend said that I should go with him because she wanted to see pictures. XD But the thing is the more I think about it, the less I want to go out with him. For starters he's just going to go back to Germany in two months, and we'll probably never see each other again. I've also heard stories about exchange students who have GFs/BFs in their home country but then come to the foreign country and cheat on them. He doesn't seem like the kind of person who'd do that, but apparently he already had a girlfriend HERE in the US at the beginning of the year but then they broke up...And you never really know. Secondly he has a really reserved and serious personality. I like to go crazy and be totally silly and not have to hold back around my friends, and of course I'd like my boyfriend to allow me to do that too. But I feel like with him I'm always restraining myself. It's hard to talk to him because I have to think of all the conversation topics myself. He's getting better at opening up, but not by much.
Plus he asked me to go to the dance with him OVER IM. Seriously. It's not like it's a big dance or anything, but ask me in person at least. 
I just don't like him in general. I see him as a friend, but not even a close one.
He's a nice person. He's not judgemental, which is something I really can't stand even though I tend to be like that myself sometimes. Plus I've never had a boyfriend before, and I'm 16 so that's pretty pathetic. XD Plus I'd feel really bad just saying no to him...I originally tried to be friends with him because I felt bad that he didn't really have any, and also because I felt like maybe I could be his friend since I had studied abroad also. So I don't want to just cut things off totally from him and leave him with no friends, but I don't want to just stop the relationship stuff and leave things really awkward either.
Oh GOD. I was the one who started all this, wasn't I? 
They did change the date of the dance, so I could say that I can't make it anymore. I do have an excuse.
What do I do??
Luvs and hugs (and cookies for reading this much),
RH
