so as i was cleaning my room i found a folder :]
i clean my room maybe once a year xDD
normally i wouldnt think much of it, and i'd just throw it into the trash
but this folder was different.
it was pink... and had flowers and fairies on it xD
so, out of curiosity, i opened it.
then i basically started crying.
for 2 reasons.
1- happiness
2- sadness
and yes, im just that weird that i can cry for both reasons AT THE SAME TIME
im not crying anymore
and im...well..at peace again (for the time being) >.<
so in the folder, i found some of my really old drawings. i dont even remember doing half of them. as (most) of you know, i started drawing (late) in my freshmen year of high school. so i was like 14. thats also the year i grew a liking to anime, and the same year i went to my first con/made my first cosplay- a very anime filled year^^
i try not to think of that year very much. because when i do, i grow emotional (ew like a girl) and i usually start to cry. im smart enough not to think of these things while im at school or with friends.
and of course im weird enough, that none of my friends actually know i still cry when i think of that year. apparently im a good actor^^ (i should try out for the school play huh? actually i did^^ im still waiting for the results...)
im now a Junior in high school, so it really hasnt been that long. er.. 16(because i lied on the age thing ^^;;) and yeah~ i talked to my mom about it, and she said that by now i should be over it...
but im not.
and i dont think i ever will be.
and no, i dont think im ready to talk about it on here... sorry... maybe another time...
so the 2007-2008 school yeah, was VERY strange for me...
there were good moments like:
- learning to love anime
- making new friends
- starting high school
- made my first cosplay
- fell in love with art
- went to my first anime convention
- created a relationship with my brother (we were never close before that year)
- learned to appreciate life, and all it has to offer
- (my group) started an anime club at school
- spent alot of quality time with my (real) parents
- went to the pound, and picked up a rescue puppy, who otherwise would of died.
- started playing lacrosse at school
- my first cell phone
of course there were countless moments i spent with friends, and memories i have made that would take forever to explain...and even then, most of you wouldnt understand haha, way too many inside jokes and unspoken thoughts xD
anyway~
i've officially strayed away from what i was going to say in the first place >.>
in my folder (which i completely dont remember at all, even though my handwriting covers the front and inside...) i found a bunch of pictures- drawings i should say (im now repeating myself i think xD) i dont remember doing half of them...and the other half i remember them being alot different...
they are horrible to say the least xD
but each one reminded me of a memory...be it good or bad
so i dont think im going to be throwing away this folder just yet^^
lol my friend Amber (aka Yaoi-chan) keeps telling me to post some of them (the ones that are not as crappy xD but still suck because i just started learning xD) i warn you that if i do... they will be moved to scraps after a little while xD AND i would love to hear some amazing flamers laughing about how horrible they are xDD im not even kidding, i would love to hear them xDD
-sigh- these are just horrible xD
i still dont remember drawing some of these... but i know that i must of..because they all have my signature on them, and my handwriting on the sides
(i used to love writing random short stories about the people i drew lol)
i remember writing most of the stories..but i swear the pictures look so foreign...
oh well..enough of my ranting
O.O"" holy shit thats a long post xDD
~Riska
