I was in such an amazing mood until like.. 10 minutes ago...
I knew it would eventually happen
There's a group of Kuroshitsuji cosplayers that I kept seeing, and talking to at the con I went to over the weekend... They were so amazing
They has a Ciel, and she was absolutely GORGEOUS! and really short and cute T-T
They had a Sebastian, who is the same guy that I've had a crush on for like a while... he's dating the gorgeous girl who cosplayed Ciel
fml
They look amazing together.... and they hardly know I exist. Story of my life.
Although I DID get into a conversation with them... and I almost cried after, because I was just so damn happy
the dude cross-played xD and he still looks better in a dress than i do
Other than the fact that he is gorgeous (he really is! Want a picture? I didnt know it was humanly possible to be that beautiful...)
He's also like 10 years older than me.. and normally thats an instant turn off (because im only 17)... but... for some reason.. It's not even registering...
He's completely perfect....
and I barely know him....
If he asked me to marry him, I would god-honestly say yes.
and anyone who knows me, knows how I feel about marriage.
I think it's completely a waste of time and money, and if two people really love each other they dont need it written on a piece of paper...
This is so not like me... I've never been so hung up on someone before...
I saw him kiss his girlfriend in one of the convention pictures, and I really almost cried. idk what the hell is going on with me, but it sucks.
Back to the Kuro group. They had a Grell(who was like.. picture perfect lol) she had the perfect hair and everything... she was really pretty too.... I want to know how all of the pretty people find each other..... They had a Madame Red, who was gorgeous and looked like she came right out of a book from the 1800's. She looked so classy... She had that certain air around her... Then they had an Undertaker, who was a dude. he looked really really good. He had that face that was just.... idk how to explain.. it was close to perfect... then the make up was amazing.... nothing compared to the Sebastian, but he was still good-looking
I can't dwell on this anymore... It's making me sick.... I hate this so much..
(the Ciel and Sebastian are from tmm, if you know what that is... Just to give you a clue..)
I don't even want to cosplay or go to conventions anymore... thats how horrible i feel about all of this... I wish I could just forget about it all....
Whatever...
That's the end of all of this...
<3-Riza
