Ugh I don't know what it is but I'm feeling super anxious today. I was okay earlier, I was just super bored. But then my parents left to go to the movies (Dinner for Schmucks! And they didn't take me!), and I sat down to browse through some films on Netflicks when I was suddenly over come by the thought of "What if they died in a car accident?! What am I going to do if they died?! THEY CAN'T EVER TRAVEL TOGETHER AGAIN!" And then my nose starting dripping and I started crying. I would be srsly helpless without my parents. And if they both died I would totally breakdown. So I really freaked myself out. I also thought about what if they just left. What if they finally decided that they were going to move out and leave us to fend for ourselves. So Basically I was freaking out about them never returning.
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On a different note, I was looking through "scary movies" on Netflicks and they had Anastsia(I totally spelt that wrong but I don't want to look it up). I giggled but it was a scary movie. It was also my favourite when I was little. But they also had "Whatever Happen to Baby Jane?" and I was like Woah! I ended up watching Shiver. It was a weird spanish film about a wild child.
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Anyway now I'm totally freaking out about college. Ugh college gives me srs anxiety. I'll only have like ten mintues to get to my classes (On tuesday and thrusday...), and I don't know where any of them are. I could find them on a map I suppose but still it's makes me nervous. And then I'm all "What if I fail?! I only did well in highschool because it was easy! I'm totally going to fail in college!!" (I'm a real negative nancy...) Ugh And I'm nervous about dorms and my weird roomate who plays the basoon. And I feel like I'm just wasting time in college because I don't have a major... I have no life goals! Haha I was thinking to myself how cool it would be if I could like dual-major in two langauges and then minor in a couple more.... I love languages so much. If it was up to me I would only study languages. SO MANY LANGUAGES~! Maybe I should major in a language.... But then which one... I'd say Chinese because that's a pretty major language... But I don't think they have chinese so the closest would be Japanese, and that one is like full because there are so many asains that go to that college~ then I guess spanish because here it's pretty important. But as much as I like spanish I don't want to study it anymore.
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Well I'm feeling less anxious now... But I'm still sick which sucks... I hate my nose. No matter how many times I blow my nose it just gets stuffed up again. I'm also incredibly thristy but none of my bros will get me a drink and there's nothing to drink here so I have to suffer~ My lips are also incredibly chapped, and every time I stand up my head explodes in pain. Joys...