I'm scared. It's really late.... I feel like I haven't stayed up this late since I was younger. And thinking about made be realize that this is my last summer before another highschool year. And that's why I'm scared. Mysenior year won't be hard... School has always been easy. It's after that... I'm not prepared. I can't drive (Legally by myself), I've never had a job, I'm lazy, I'm needy, I'm childish. I'm not ready. But then I think I'll never be ready. I'm scared of what the future might hold. I'm not ready to handle it. Everyone keeps saying that when it happens I'll be ready.But I don't feel like I will be. I know I can't stop the future from happening but I wish it wouldn't. I'm not ready to be an adult. Obviously, seeing as even now just thinking about the future I'm crying like a baby. Itry a reassure myself. That everything will be fine, and I'll be okay. But deep down I feel like the best of life has already happened on from here on out it's downhill... Which I guess is accurate. After all everything is happening so fast, and even if I slow down I won't be able to stop. I just got to not think about it... When it happens it happens... I just got to relax...
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Let's see other things I'm afaird of... Birds, Pomeranians, Wombats, Murders, stalkers, walking down the street by myself, being inthe house by myself, horror movies, mirrors when no lights are one, dead things, spiders, darkness, speaking in front of people (at least that's not as bad as it used to be), being alone forever, my mom dying, skin cancer, pain, people holding knives, bugs in general.... Phew I feel better now. I can't think of anything else... I'd say zombies but I feel they belong under dead things and horror movies. But I am afaird to walk on grass after dark because of that.
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What are you afaird of?