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i hope we get new color options soon XD im prity content with my curent layout
im so tyered
hm right iv noticed tha some of my freinds arnt geting on as much as they used to [see i do miss you guys] i gess their bisy and stuff so i sopose theill get on once they get that out of the waywell my life is been kinda fun lately[i mean during lunch and stuff ]its fun mocking steven cause his ex came backe nd he only whent out with her cause she was leaving XD
[poor girl]
andy way i feel like i go over g bored with the evil ruteen so im going to twn it down a bit
lol it was funy cause nick saw fill in his freinds car and did some rude jesture at him and phill flicked him of in return and i smacked nick with my water bottel
nick:ow what was that for
me: dont be mean to phill!
nick : aww are you saying that i cant be mean to him at all
me :ok but only well im not around....

have any of you hered of a saying thats kinda like "the kind does not know his own evil"
[i think thats how it said]
it baisicaly saying that some tyrants do not mean to do bad and do not think that what ever they are doing is bad so in their opinion they are actualy good [in their heads]
this i know happens with alot off ppl i know including me
i told steven about one of the problems that iv been having[some of my best freinds like me alot ! and it makes me feel bad that theyed do anything for me and do things for me that they should be doing for a girl that loves them back ]
and their so kind to me ..it makes me feel like a horable person....
becasue no one had revealed their emotions to me i cant turn them down[and their is no way i am mis reading them cause it so oviouse that they like me !!!!] so i have no choice but to string them along....
thank fuyll i know that one wont try any thing [idk y]
and the other one has a girl freind and he wont breack up with her cause of the hard time she is going through [thow iv told him plenty of times i wasint intrested ...poor guy he has been likeing me sence the 6th grade!]
so ant way steven stoped talking after i told him some of this and he was like
OMG your a user
me .......
me:but i dont mean too
any way i some times fee like i like one but ... then i remeber what happend once with a freind of mine that i thot i liked when i was around him i was always blushing under my skin and very shy [un like when im with guys i like ] and i mis took that for love ....

so yah im skrewed
so im prity loved smothered and i want to escape it !
then thier was this other guy that said soem thing seeet to me and i was like o no not him too [he does things like this all the time out loud and kinda emberasis me ]
i just remeber thinking "dont tell me that i dont diserve it "
i dont even want to think about love even if i love them back im sick of it if i lisen to love songs i think im going to blow a chunck !

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