[this is a tad of a pitty party so dont read if you get anoyed XD]
would the world like me better if i pretended to be happy and all i did all day was preach about how happy i am and rainbows and butterflys?
i know that alot of you would reply " no, just be your self" or something around that line am i right?XD
but i just can never bee that person though i do have my moments...i just dont hhave the energy for it and how can i preach about such a place when i myself do not know of one? would it make me a lier?
it seems that i have always been left behind for the ppl who could do that, the ppl who could be happy, the ppl who could lie. and yes alot of them dont lie, wich makes me feel worse .
and suffer and wach as the other person makes the ones you love happy, and slowly forget about you...when you realize your the evil one?

like i said iv been thinking...