Mood: dissapointed
so much has happened that im not sure where to begin
i know i've never said this before, but the only reason i'm still in the US is because i still have my visa and passport current. my dad's the one that reminds us and makes sure we get that paperwork where it should be before we get the boot.
but now that's all changed.
so, my sister got a job at the local hospital like 7 months ago. it was going great for her (she was even making more money than my dad was), i started going to training for my job, my mom also got some odd jobs, and even to my surprise, my brother didn't fail miserably (or at all) any of his classes. then two months ago, my sis comes up with the bright idea of leaving home (for one day) with this guy she met at work. now to this point i was with her. there was some major issues she had to work out and being at home would only worsen them. dad didn't see it that way and we wound up talking about the implications of her leaving the house like that, she made my mom cry, my dad couldn't sleep, my brother did both of those, and i well, i was kinda happy for her.
the next day she had us all worried cause she didn't come back until about noon and when she did she didn't say anything until late when she had decided that she still wanted to live with us and didn't want to separate us (cause that's what it looked like was about to happen). so later that night, we all made plans, my sister would keep her job until mid February where she would quit and return to ecuador (our home country xD). my dad had bought us a house last year and she wanted to head there and get everything fixed by the time the rest of us got there (sometime in may), and all was right with the world (well sortof, we just couldn't trust my sister like we did before).
then, about three days later, my dad and my sister went to a lawyer to talk about our paperwork. from there they confirmed that my sister and me would not be able to renew our papers (since we're not dependants i guess) and would have to apply by ourselves. didn't matter cause we didn't think any of us were going to. but apparently my sister had heard something that caught her attention and the next day, and only letting my mom know, she called the lawyer again and threw this dynamite laced wrench in our system.
and like all wrenches in a system, it took a little while before it choked it up. some way (i really can't remember) we found out that what my sister had heard the lawyer say was that she could stay if she got married to a US citizen (yeah, the guy that helped her get out that one night). and she had actually been making plans behind all of our backs. we actually found all of this out two days ago. when she said that she was going to marry this idiot of a guy move with him to idaho and (possibly) keep her studies going over there.
the fact that this was the day after my dad's birthday made it all worse. she had made all her plans. they would get married by march move the same month and who knows what would have come next. and what bothered me wasn't that she was getting married, but how fast she was getting married. at the most she knew the guy for six or seven months. what bothered me more was that she had my mom (who i thought she told everything) that she was on board with our returning to ecuador (she was even making plans for THAT!) and when we found out all of us cried eight years worth of tears. i've never seen my dad like that. it just broke my heart. it pissed me off that she only thought about her, she forgot that she wanted my grandpa at her wedding, that she wanted us at her wedding (since i don't know much about the plans i only assume she was going to hurry it up in vegas or something)
she loves him she said, he loves her she said. and that's all she said. my dad kept asking questions trying to at least see her reason for doing this, and she just wouldn't say anything. and i kept thinking about was what i was going to say to my grandpa when i see him or my grandma when i visit her tomb.
i guess its only fitting...
this might as well be my last post. i might still log on from time to time.
i can't even smile to her anymore. my mom's got me like some guard dog, they're both scared she might just run away...to be honest so am i.
