Peh, I'm feeling emo >.> I'm not gonna do anything, so stop worrying, otay? *mumbles* it's not like I'd be able to get away with anything in this house anyways... I just feel insane right now. Seriously guys, T^T I'm not sane. Do you ever feel like there are a bunch of ants crawling all over you and they're driving you crazy and you just like want to claw at yourself to relieve yourself of the pain? No, I'm not going crazy over something trivial like "GAH I HAVE SO MUCH HOMEWORK I WANT TO DIE!!" It's just this house I'm condemned to live in. It's not the whole oh my parents drive me insane deal. My mom has been seriously sick for like five years and I've had to like take care of her and be the perfect student to make her happy and crap. And I have to be happy all the time to keep other people happy and sometimes...I break down. Today is one of those days. For serial, I'm so sick and tired of people expecting me to be Happy, Merry, Jane.

>.> Looks like I take care of everybody else, but I don't even take care of myself. My emotions are bottling themselves up and they're gonna explode. My two outlets: Talking with a well trusted friend and writing poetry. Problem---I have a trust issue. <.< >.> IMMA SPLODE. Sorry dearies, I'm losing my marbles. Oops, there goes one. *chases after marble* COME BACK!

Sometimes life seems to quiet into paralyzing silence,
Like the moonless dark, meant to make me strong.
Familiar breath of my old lives
Changed the color in my eyes,
Soon he will perforate the fabric of the peaceful by and by.