Hello there everyone!! My goodness, this was the toughest year I've had in my life so far but it was certainly worthwhile! And 2010 isn't over yet! =P School let out for me yesterday and it was certainly a wonderful last day of school! Everyone got to be together for the final day of school and although a lot of my teachers are retiring this year, it was nice to be able to share the experience with them ^^ Although I didn't get to talk to a certain someone yesterday, I at least got to see his smile yesterday and I am very happy I got to do so!
Anyway, now that summer has begun, I have some news for you all! I'm leaving for Korea on June 20th, so I will be gone from then until the 17th! Of course I'll still be online there to comment and such, but I probably won't be able to post art until I return. I will try to use my dad's scanner though, so I can get in my Otaku Battle Royal entry on time (and I will probably end up submitting my Your OTP entry like...the day before xDDD)! Nonetheless, I will certainly try my best!
After my unfortunate computer crash, I have to reinstall old programs and such including my tablet and Photoshop, so hopefully I can get around to doing that soon(my mom is prohibiting the installation of programs for now because she's a bit afraid of it crashing again xD).
I promise everyone, I have much to show you! It's just...they all need to be COMPLETED lol xDD
All in all, I love you guys! I'll be getting around to PMs today!<3 Take care and I hope you all have a wonderful day!
EDIT: Quick question everyone, do you think I should cut out some things from my huge intro list? xDD I cut out a few names but I feel kind of torn on it because I mean..as much as it lets people know more about me and what I like, I don't want people to be annoyed having to scroll down to my posts xD So let me know what you guys think I should do about it >.<
EDIT2: I changed the layout as suggested by Ranefea and Suerte~ let me know if you guys think it still needs more improving xD
Ah well I had a really long post but internet died and deleted it all =/
Anywhos..I'll try and replicate it as much as I can(and maybe make it an even BETTER post than before! =P)
So...*Tackle hugs you all* Hello there everyone! I do hope you all have been doing well! Today is a gloomy sunday morning with heavy rain, but I'm enjoying myself nonetheless! After a not-so-great experience with the SAT yesterday...well, let's just say this week hasn't been the best of weeks. I'm a bit late with this post because several days back I had a computer crash and so I JUST got a new computer installed with new speakers revamped and everything yesterday night and I have to say, it's quite the upgrade xD Windows 7 is almost like a Mac! 0__o But anyway I'm loving it and I really appreciate all of the work my mom put into it...she's definitely dedicated *nods* and I love her very much. On top of that, though, the computer crash not only made me have to go back and salvage all of my data onto my laptop, but it happened two days before a 15-page math paper was due! And well...guess what that meant...haha. Yep, doing the entire paper in one whole night...and this wasn't even the result of procrastination either T__T My other laptops didn't have MS Office installed(and I didn't have a CD to install it until I got a new software from my neighbor). But anyway I got it all done~ and it didn't go too badly because actually something good came out of it. Someone was kind enough to stay up with me and encourage me while I worked on it and he really kept my sprits up ^^ (thank you too Unknown-chan for the confidence boost! *hugs*)
But moving on~ first off, I forgot to mention it in the last post, but I did go to see Prince of Persia on the 29th with my sister and it was ABSOLUTELY AMAZING(And I don't know what on earth you were talking about Den-chan about it being so violent because I've seen movies much much much more violent than this xDDD). Jake Gyllenhaal...I thought that he probably wouldn't have been able to pull Dastan off but it turns out that he did a superb job with the role. Absolutely handsome, great actor, and well-rounded personality~ he did such an amazing job capturing Dastan's character. Same for Gemma Arterton, I really thought she was going to be soo annoying(especially after seeing her as Io in Clash of the Titans, I didn't really have much of a liking for her), but in the end Tamina ended up being much better than I had originally thought ^^ Haha I think Jake Gyllenhaal and Sam Worthington are definitely my two favorite actors(and Viggo Mortenson..but he's kind of old news at the moment xD). So for those haven't seen The Prince of Persia, I HIGHLY recommend it! It's my favorite movie of the year so far. ^^(but don't play the original old prince of persia games...they are freaking hard and I died on the first stage because a)I couldn't jump across a cliff over a spike pit b)I got killed by some random guy in a dungeon or c)I disappeared behind a wall LOL.)
Second off, I wanted to say congrats to Mash-chan, Truly-chan, and Angel-kun for getting the answer to the song lyrics on the last post! It was Kiss Me Goodbye from Final Fantasy XII, and I didn't think anyone would get it actually xDDD In any case, congrats to you guys, you might just get a surprise =P
Oh, I finally got to talk to my dad again yesterday which was so great! It's been a week and his voice sounds so much lighter and much better ^^ It's great to hear him not as depressed anymore, it really is. As you guys could probably tell, my dad means so much to me, as I'm sure your dads mean a lot to you guys.
And finally well..art-wise I really haven't had the time. Leave it to my school to assign a 1200-1600 word essay that's due on the LAST DAY OF SCHOOL xD I'm finally on my last week, and they have to assign this and a whole book for me to read. Oh yes, it's going to be a long week. But I'll get through it, besides, as my dad says, what's one week when there are 51 others in a whole year and many more throughout the whole span of your life!
Although just so you all know, I haven't been completely slacking either xD In fact, I'm working on several different projects but the trouble is just trying to finish one OTL. I'm working on it though, I promise! I just really really ought to try and actually finish these *sigh*. Soo many different things to do @__@ I still haven't finished my 9-square project from Winter break(mostly due to the fact that I made a mistake with one square and since I've been reluctant to finish it T__T).
Anyway, I can't remember what else I wrote in my post...so I think I'll just end it right here. Besides, I'm watching yet another Law and Order SVU Marathon(and for those of you who didn't know, that is my favorite TV show probably ever xD I watch a LOT of shows on USA including NCIS, Burn Notice, and Royal Pains especially). Casey Novak=one of my biggest inspirations to become a lawyer lol. She's absolutely incredible and I can't believe she got thrown off the show =/ (oh and Olivia and Elliot should totally be together, just saying. xD)
I'll leave it right there for you all! Take care everyone~ I do hope you guys are doing well ^^ Summer is right around the corner, tell me some of your plans! *hugs* Love you guys!
*hugs you all* Hello everyone~ thank you all so so so sooo much. There are no words on this planet and beyond that could ever describe how grateful and lucky I am to have you guys as friends! T__T You guys have even given me more comfort than any of my real-life friends have, actually; which may sound kind of sad, but mind you, talking about death to everyone at school isn't something one should feel inclined to showcase. (of course, that being said, it's kind of hypocritical because of my blog here xD)
In any case, I love you guys so so much. Thank you all for the wonderful comments, virtual hugs, and beautiful dedications...you really didn't have to do all of that for me >.< The world really does move on as if nothing has ever happened but that is just something I'm going to have to accept. I can't linger on it forever, and you guys are right: time really does heal and I'm seeing it everyday. My mother is handling a little bit better each day and my sister is too. I can't say much for my father as of yet but I know he's strong and that he'll get back up on his feet soon! If there's anything I can certainly do besides offer the comfort I can to the best of my ability, it's to have faith in my family's spirit. I know they are strong and they've taught me well(just like you all!).
Despite all of this though, I was being quite a bit selfish again and had another breakdown yesterday. It seems that I must have a much lower self-esteem than I believe I have and that this negativity is manifesting itself in this weight loss process. I'm not the only one going through this I'm sure, so crying about it certainly is not the way to approach this. *sigh* It's all about getting over the first hill and becoming consistent again, I guess.
On another note, however, it was the birthday of someone very special to me yesterday ^^ I even got him a lovely box of treats and some pocky sticks for him and it made me so very happy to hear his reaction! I was able to talk to him more comfortably again after yesterday and that also made me feel so happy. He really is like sunshine in my day and brightens my day like no one else could. Each person I know in life really helps to light up my day in a different way, so I'm grateful to each person I have in my life!
Hm...so all in all, things have been lightening up each and every day ^^ Even on days when it rains, like today, it doesn't mean things aren't getting any better. Last sunday, my sister got her official doctor's white coat so that she can finally move on to her rotations in July! One of my family's friends had her first baby girl on wednesday and one of my close real-life friends finally was able to overcome some tensions with her father. I was even able to have my first ATC trade with Unknown-chan; and despite my not having received my card yet, I'm absolutely happy that she loved the card I made! ^^
Only 3 more weeks until I'm able to see my dad again! ^^
Oh and if anyone is able to guess what song the title comes from, I will give you a huge hug and a little surprise!<3
And Happy Memorial Day Weekend everyone~ don't forget to honor our hard-working war heroes, veterans, and members of our police force!
I love you all very much! Take care of yourselves and enjoy your long three-day weekends!
Hey everyone...geez I am really not liking how fate has been set up for me this month. In fact, this is probably the worst month I have ever had in my life so far, and I just hope it doesn't get any worse. I've already had to deal with one death in my family...
*sigh* Well guess what.
My grandma on my dad's side just passed away this morning...
I don't know if I've told you all already, but my grandma on my mom's side was sick with Stage 4 stomach cancer. My grandma on my dad's side was sick with liver AND lung cancer(after it metasticized to her lung).
My mom didn't want to tell me about her passing before my exam because she didn't want it to affect my test-taking, but oh my word. It was so sudden and so soon.
I don't want to say I hate it, but I really wish fate was set up a different way for me this month. Really, why THIS time. Time is moving just too fast for me, it goes by like a total blur and then BAM the next moment both of my grandmothers are dead within 2 weeks of each other.
My grandma on my dad's side was in SUCH pain..if you knew how complicated the situation was, it would make more sense to you all, but I don't want to go on with the technical elements. Let's just say that she was in so much pain that it was affecting her ability to get treatment and well, her heart just stopped pumping.
My word. I have absolutely no idea what to think. I'm just stunned. My father is in MASSIVE depression right now and I can't do anything...I even heard that her funeral service didn't go well either because some random guests from a nearby university just randomly showed up and ruined the whole thing. Incredibly disrespectful...and although my dad's siblings showed up, none of them even came to visit my grandma(their mother) while she was ill the hospital! I think it was absolutely inconsiderate for them not to even find time to stop by when even my mom's side of the family stopped by to see her before her passing.
I just really wish I could have been there. I really really don't know what the heck I am doing in America away from my relatives in Korea sometimes, especally during times like these.
On my dad's birthday, April 25th, my sister and I filmed a video for him and our grandma on our dad's side, and I said a little bit of Korean here and there. My dad told me that my grandma said that I had grown so much and gotten so much prettier since she last saw me and she said she wanted to see me so much. And I almost cried when I heard that because for much of this time, she was the main person that criticized me for my inability to speak Korean well..and to hear her say that and not be able to see her. It just broke my heart to pieces.
I still haven't cried yet. Time is just moving too fast.
Hello there everyone! I have much to say to you but no words can really express what I'm feeling >.< I came on and saw all of your wonderful comments a few days ago and I almost started crying with happiness. You all are so so wonderful, especially those of you that said such beautiful words to comfort me, I honestly can't thank you enough. Although I haven't personally met any of you, I feel like I know you all in such a special way that no words could ever describe that feeling of friendship and love I share with you guys. So to Truly-chan, Sam-kun, Ima-chan, Den-chan, Saxgirl-chan, Anna-chan, Deb-chan, and Angel-kun: thank you so so much for your kind words, I really felt you guys with me on the day I read them. To all of my wonderful friends, and you know who you are, thank you to you all too! I haven't cried yet...but until it becomes the appropriate time to grieve and truly let out my sadness about her death, I'll certainly be strong. ^^ And a lot of it is thanks to all of you guys<3 You all just make me smile! *super hugs you all* And I'm sure if my grandma was alive, she'd love to meet all of you and say that I'm so lucky to have such wonderful friends ^^
So regarding the title, I have recently fell in love with the magical pages of Heart no Kuni no Alice<333 I love Alice in Wonderland itself but this manga is such a wonderful adaptation and twist to the story, it just makes me smile and feel so warm inside everytime I read a new page ^^ Not to mention, it's been a burst of inspiration to me for drawing~ so despite lack of time, I've managed to make a few things thanks to this incredible feeling I've been having thanks to Alice in the Country of Hearts. This might sound incredibly naive and idealistic, but I'm sure I'm not the only one that's been touched by Alice in Wonderland, no matter what form. ^^
Anyway, that having been said, I just wanted to excuse my absence because my mother still is having trouble recovering. I was unable to do anything for her on Mother's Day because she didn't want me to and she refused to see anyone or go anywhere for the first 3-4 days after my grandma's passing. I just hugged her and told her I loved her, and decided not to do anything because I wanted to respect her wishes on that. She wanted time to grieve, so I gave her that and as much comfort as I could on Mother's Day.
Thank you all so so much<33 You are certainly one huge piece of my heart and I'm certain that I never would have made it this far without you guys! I love every single one of you and take care! *hugs you all*
