*hugs you all* Hello everyone~ thank you all so so so sooo much. There are no words on this planet and beyond that could ever describe how grateful and lucky I am to have you guys as friends! T__T You guys have even given me more comfort than any of my real-life friends have, actually; which may sound kind of sad, but mind you, talking about death to everyone at school isn't something one should feel inclined to showcase. (of course, that being said, it's kind of hypocritical because of my blog here xD)
In any case, I love you guys so so much. Thank you all for the wonderful comments, virtual hugs, and beautiful dedications...you really didn't have to do all of that for me >.< The world really does move on as if nothing has ever happened but that is just something I'm going to have to accept. I can't linger on it forever, and you guys are right: time really does heal and I'm seeing it everyday. My mother is handling a little bit better each day and my sister is too. I can't say much for my father as of yet but I know he's strong and that he'll get back up on his feet soon! If there's anything I can certainly do besides offer the comfort I can to the best of my ability, it's to have faith in my family's spirit. I know they are strong and they've taught me well(just like you all!).
Despite all of this though, I was being quite a bit selfish again and had another breakdown yesterday. It seems that I must have a much lower self-esteem than I believe I have and that this negativity is manifesting itself in this weight loss process. I'm not the only one going through this I'm sure, so crying about it certainly is not the way to approach this. *sigh* It's all about getting over the first hill and becoming consistent again, I guess.
On another note, however, it was the birthday of someone very special to me yesterday ^^ I even got him a lovely box of treats and some pocky sticks for him and it made me so very happy to hear his reaction! I was able to talk to him more comfortably again after yesterday and that also made me feel so happy. He really is like sunshine in my day and brightens my day like no one else could. Each person I know in life really helps to light up my day in a different way, so I'm grateful to each person I have in my life!
Hm...so all in all, things have been lightening up each and every day ^^ Even on days when it rains, like today, it doesn't mean things aren't getting any better. Last sunday, my sister got her official doctor's white coat so that she can finally move on to her rotations in July! One of my family's friends had her first baby girl on wednesday and one of my close real-life friends finally was able to overcome some tensions with her father. I was even able to have my first ATC trade with Unknown-chan; and despite my not having received my card yet, I'm absolutely happy that she loved the card I made! ^^
Only 3 more weeks until I'm able to see my dad again! ^^
Oh and if anyone is able to guess what song the title comes from, I will give you a huge hug and a little surprise!<3
And Happy Memorial Day Weekend everyone~ don't forget to honor our hard-working war heroes, veterans, and members of our police force!
I love you all very much! Take care of yourselves and enjoy your long three-day weekends!
