I am ALREADY stressed.
Like overwhelmingly stressed.
Especially since I'm getting into the blunt of the journalism courses(in other words, getting a taste of what journalism really is about), I'm very concerned that I'm not meant to be in this field of study at all; but then again, this is only the beginning, so perhaps I shouldn't have any expectations or assumptions.
Problem being, I feel so out-of-rhythm with the rest of the people I'm taking my courses with, because every person I've heard introductions from and talked to personally has had experience in journalism whereas I know absolutely nothing about it. I mean, that's why I'm here to learn of course, but I'm just...well, I hate to admit it, but I'm really frightened.
I'm only 18 and I still have many more years to find out what I want to do for the rest of my life, but the stress brought on by questions such as "describe yourself in one paragraph and say what you would be able to offer to a broadcasting company" is overwhelming. I don't know how to answer any sort of questions about myself, and it's really frustrating. I don't know what kind of job I would even WANT in journalism, much less what job I want for myself at ALL.
And I think that's normal, to an extent. I'm sure a majority of students that have just entered the university like me probably don't know EXACTLY what they want to be just yet, or perhaps they THINK they do, when they don't. And I just keep thinking to myself, if I am aware of this, then why do I keep questioning my insecurity over the subject?
Well, I'd like to say that I'm only human, but really I have no idea.
I really have no idea about a lot of things. haha
I wonder, can any of you confidently describe yourself and your qualities to someone if asked? I have such a difficult time with saying anything with absolute confidence.
Sorry for all of the more "deep" posts as of late. I have a lot to think about >.< I AM enjoying my classes for the most part though, so that's something positive that has come out of this first week back in college.
But on another note, I'm very happy we were able to complete the Challenge Slam! I wasn't able to contribute to it, but because of it, there are many new challenges I wish to enter! Also, if you have not seen my latest pic, I'd love it if you could check it out. I have been really busy, so I'll get to replying to comments as soon as possible. Thank you guys for being patient with me, and take care!
