Im really getting torn over whether or not to mention what has me losing sleep and stressing me the hell out on the site. But I also need to respect the privacy of all involved parties so I just dont know. All I can say is that things are still shitty, and they are staying that way for the time being.

I really do wish I could be able to talk about something other that the thing I cant talk about(did that make sense?). But with my laptop out of commission, I haven't even been watching anime for the last 4 months. And that is usually my escape from reality. So reality is kicking my ass, and it hurts.

Maybe I just need a forum like this to try and help organize my thoughts. But I dont know, I just seem to be really filled with frustration, depression, and angst over all of what is going on. And its not fair to you guys who actually care what I have to say for some reason to only see me in a constant state of self pity.

I got a birthday coming up next Sunday, and Im depressed as shit over that, too.

Ill be around. You just may not notice it much.