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Work has been, well, work. Not much to tell about driving a school bus that I havent already said. The summer school route ends next Friday, the 18th. Then I am out of work. I hope they dont dick me out of unemployment, which would absolutely be awful.

The downtime I have has given me the oppurtunity to draw more, a couple of originals, and one or two new fanarts, but mainly I have been doing tutorial type work from a "How to Draw Manga" book. Its cool learning new techniques and its making my drawings look better each new page in the sketch pad.

The softball league has been something of a internal struggle, I love hanging out with the team mates, I have made some new friends because of this. However, everytime I go out on to the field I keep thinking "I shouldnt be out here." I cant hit like I could in Jr. High and High School, I cant run due to my size, which means all I can do is pitch, and so far, its been one near miss after another with opponents trying to take my head off. The one that hit my leg, Im just glad it was my leg. If it hit me in the head, I dont know what the hell would be going on right now. Id probably be suffering serious brain damage. And another one almost took my head off again last week.

I dont know, I have been experiencing mixed emotions lately. I have been quite content while feeling completely depressed. I dont know how I can pull that one off, but I seem to be able to now. That, and Im having sleep problems again, like I did back in college, and right after I moved in. Cant fall asleep, and dont want to wake up in the morning, and waking up in the night for no apparent reason. I should see my doctor about this stuff, but there is absolutely no way to afford it right now.

And its not that I am completely depressed, there are good things in my life right now, the band is moving along nicely, I have been getting a lot of compliments on my vocals when I do sing. My artwork is coming along. But with all of this, my life still feels kinda empty right now. I dont know how else to put it.

Take care guys.

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