Im in another Emo period. Too quick to temper, too quick to despair, and all forms of motivation and positive thought went right out the freaking window. Im sure it has a lot to do with whats been going on. Compounded with issues with my brother, who has this insane ability to piss me off at the drop of a hat. Could be something little, which most of the times is the case. I know it also has a lot to do with me still in the damn bus. I was really hoping to not have to go back.

My bosses will say "Welcome Back" to the drivers returning for another year, like their programmed to say it. Even if they want to or not.

My students' and their parents see me pull up and I get smiles, and genuine "WELCOME BACK JOHN" from most of them. The kids are used to me, they are comfortable with me being their driver. And the parents all feel that their kids are in the best hands in the bus company. Makes me warm and fuzzy. Then the bus company cuts a half hour of time out of my day, and I want to borrow Molly's matches and kerosene and watch things burn. So last Friday and the first half of this week the bads far outweigh the goods.

So yeah, now Im depressed. I hate my brain, and at times I think the feelings are mutual.