So my friend's mom has cancer. Breast cancer and brain cancer and it spread so far that they think she might be brain dead. I'm really sad about this but I have to be strong for my friend. She told me this while keeping a straight face at another friend's grad party. I'm so proud of her for holding up because I know she's a little crybaby inside. But I think this experience has made her grow up too fast in less than a month.

I know none of my friends will read this so I'm not afraid of anyone finding out. But I'm so worried about her mom. I prayed so hard today that I felt a stream of tears coming from both of my eyes. I care about that family. And her mom is an uber nice person. She's almost like an aunt to me. I prayed to the God, Jesus, Mary, Joseph and Saint Peregrine; Saint of Cancer. If anyone can perform a miracle. I know at least one of them can. And also, I kinda gave them an idea. Its a bad idea, thinking back on equivalent exchange. What if I gave her a fraction of my life? Like scrape a couple of years off mine to add to her's? Just so she can be well enough to say what she needs to before she passes on. (Which is super hard to think about right now) I know its wrong to think like that because its almost black magic. But things are getting bad.

But I just pray to any saint that will listen. If they can help, and I beg of their help, please let Ms Lisa not be in pain. Please let her be well again. Give her Your Strength to fight this cancer and beat it. Because once she smiles again, my friend can smile sincerely instead of one of those fake 'I'm about to cry so fricken hard' smiles. And when my friend smiles, our entire friendship group smiles. And smiles go for miles as they say.