People say that I should swallow my pride... learn that forgiving is a necessity... but it's hard, to let your guard down, when through your entire life... you've only had yourself to count on... you had YOUR perception of right and wrong. I've been hurt so much... that I just STOPPED trusting people. Sure, now I trust a select few, but they've also been with me forever... and have proven their trust to me time and time again.

Back to pride... there are so many times in my life, that I let my pride... "slip" as you may, and those were the times I got hurt the most. Sometimes I thought I'd never be able to trust them again. And I was right, I believe that if they hurt you once (on a high caliber) then they shouldn't be trusted. (I'm not talking about, your friend would rather hang out with her other friends instead of you. Like actually burn you.) But I go back, not trusting, faking every emotion. And I think it's ruining me...

I'm a bird with no wings, and I feel like a hollow shell of what I used to be. I'll see you around.

No more Hope