Quote of the Week: You do you and I'll do me and we're not gonna do each other.

Unfiltered

Normally I know ahead of time what I'm gonna post here but today I was like 'I seriously don't know what to post' so I guess I'll just say something I've been meaning to say for a while.
When I post anything on theO , usually I'll be my usual shy self and reread it, like 3 times, before I decide it's good enough to submit, even if it's just a reply to a comment.
Due to recent events I've decided I'm not gonna do that anymore, from now on this is the 'unfiltered' version of what I'm thinking. I'm not gonna be afraid of people thinking I'm weird and changing what I wrote.
You might not even notice a change, IDK, cuz in my mind I'm actually a very weird person and I find almost everything quite amusing. I was gonna say I naturally tone it done when I talk to people, not because I'm afraid, but because it's my instinct, but now that I think about it people usually tone it done when they're not with their friends right? And if I had friends with common interests I don't know how I'd act around them.
Anyways, the point is: I'm basically like Sakura (Naruto), calm and nice on the outside but on the inside acting all arrogant or threatening to kill somebody ( not literally of course)
I like this better actually. Just writing what I want and thinking it's not my problem if people think I'm weird.
Now if only I could do this IRL too.....

Tips

I found these tips on how to be more self disciplined from different places:

1. Eliminate the Guilt (source-article that caught my attention one day: BBC Future)
Apparently our brains associate the feeling of guilt with pleasure so feeling guilty about doing something makes you want to do it more. I mean stuff like watching TV when you should be working, not really bad stuff like robbing a bank or something. A university did a study and found that people who don't feel guilty about, i.e. procrastination, are less likely to do it. Sounds nice... now I just have to figure how to not feel guilty about not getting my work done.

2. Write It Down ( source- my dad has entered a 'make money fast but if that doesn't work have my daughter get rich for me 'phase. Book he made me read: Rich By 22 by Tom Corson-knowles)
Before I read the book I actually looked up the author to see if he was actually rich. I'm not about to take advice from some unsuccessful person, if you know what I mean. He has his own business and started when he was 13 so he seems legit to me.
Anyways... According to this book it helps if you write down what you're going to do. Like how it feels good to check something off your To-DO list. It probably also helps you remember what you need to do.

SoMetHinG To ThInk AbOut : mixed feelings

Ever come across a character you had mixed feelings about?
I have.
Like, for example, Goomoonrong (9 arts dragon or 9AD for short. I'm, like, the only person who bothers to call him his whole name) from The Breaker. It's like the whole first season was spent building up this image of him being a funny, likeable guy although even then you could kind of see that he didn't have the same morals as everyone else. But then you have to face the fact that he has murdered and harmed people ( both innocent and otherwise).
On one hand: He's one of the main characters; one of the "good guys". It's not like he's killing people for the usual villainous reasons, like power or something. He can be nice when he wants to be and he obviously cares about the people he's close to. And he's just a nice character.
On the other hand: His real reason for being so murderous isn't really a good excuse either and he's really merciless at times.
So basically, I want him to have a happy ending but at the same time it almost seems unfair or unrealistic that someone like him should get away without consequences.
9AD is one of my favorite characters, from ANY manga I've read, but tbh if I met him IRL I'd either:
A. Run for my life
B. Hope he doesn't notice me
C. Ask for his autograph

I could go on about mixed feelings for a long time. Like the CCG and the ghouls in Tokyo Ghoul.
On one hand: The CCG are protecting innocent people from ghouls that will kill them and some ghouls really want to hurt them for no good reason *cough*aogiritree*cough*
On the other hand: The CCG are also killing innocent ghouls who need to either eat humans or die. They don't understand that ghouls are basically just humans with very different bodies. It's not their fault they only eat humans and its not the humans' fault they don't want to be eaten.
So how do you resolve this?
Manga and Anime give you something to think about sometimes.
P.S. If you haven't read The Breaker you should. It's awesome. ( this always confuses people- The Breaker: New Waves is the sequel. Read The Breaker first then New Waves) (^_^)

Story Ideas

I wonder how long I'll be on the topic of stories in this world. wowIgotzerofeedbackonmylaststorysoeithernoonelikeditornoonecares Friday I'll probably talk about these self control methods I saw somewhere.

Anyways....
I used to write a lot of short stories when I was small. But even when I stopped I always had these different stories and characters in my head; I just never wrote them down. Over winter break I was gonna start a new one but I couldn't decide between these two that I've been thinking about for a while:
1. A girl lives in the early 1900s or late 1800s and has a very tragic life but she's still very cheerful somehow. Then she gets murdered. But before she goes to the afterlife or whatever happens after death, she defies all logic and goes back to the world of the living to find the happiness she never had in her life. When she returns she ends up in the 21st century. She lives with a woman and her younger brother whose parents died recently. The girl turns both of their lives around and helps pull the boy out of his depression while learning new things about the world herself.

2. (This one is less developed) A guy has special powers (kinda like the Deviants in the story I shared) and he lives in a nation with people that are like him. They don't really interact with normal people. The "deviant" nation (I'll just call them that for now) decides they want to take over the "normal" nation. So they experiment on this guy and find a way to turn him into a normal person. They then send him to secretly infiltrate a private place in the normal nation. He becomes frustrated with his new body and tries to turn himself back. While some of his abilities are enhanced, he fails and by now the normal people are aware of the plot and chaos breaks out.

I'm not sure which story I like better but both of them still need some work.

Story- Part 9 ~ END

"Why don't you say hello to my real friends?" said Rhoda. A new set of villains stepped out from where they had been hiding in the darkness. The ones she had defeated got up again as if they had just been playing dead. They took off their jackets and Marisa was almost not surprised to see the initials D.H. on the front of all their shirts. Almost. She had only one question for Rhoda.
"Why?"
"Because these are the only people who accepted me," Rhoda answered.
"You could've joined Meridan's. We would have accepted you."
"Maybe you and all your friends are okay with loving yourselves and being hated by society, but I can't do that. I can't be an outcast everyday of my life and still smile."
"What about that stuff you said earlier about being strong? Were those words meaningless?"
Rhoda smiled sadly. "Marisa," she said, "when did I ever say I was strong?"
"These guys are obviously just using you."
"Shut up!" Rhoda screamed. The members of D.H. started moving forward. They drew their weapons and began to surround the injured Marisa.
But, they had only taken a few steps when the windows around the room shattered and the front door burst open. Into the room came a stream of students from Meridan's. They attacked mercilessly, taking their enemies by surprise.
"We were followed?!", Rhoda exclaimed.
"Did you think we'd trust anyone who who came and claimed they wanted to help us?" Marisa answered. Rhoda just stood, shocked, as the D.H. were overpowered and defeated around her. Outside the sounds of sirens could be heard as the police arrived. As the first members of D.H. were taken away, Marisa's friends came over to help her get up.
"Rhoda," she said. "I think you may have focused too much on the little things, like who accepted you, and not enough on the big things, like actually being accepted by anyone." The police came over to restrain Rhoda. She struggled, but they were too strong. She was soon subdued.
"Maybe you'll find a balance someday," Marisa said to her as Rhoda was taken away.
Marisa felt the necklace around her neck and knew that she had found a balance for herself. She would no longer let the small or the big things hold her back and because of that she'd be able to do what Rhoda couldn't do. Move forward.
The End

~ Well, that was my story. Hope you enjoyed. :)
Any feedback is welcome. If you thought it was good, bad, confusing, etc, either way I'd like to know what people think.
I haven't written stories in a while but I think I'll start again.