I officially name October Asshole Month. Cause, cause holy shit they are out in abundance to make my life miserable. Was there some national message for all assholes to come out of whatever hole they live in and go public this month that I missed? It’s a conspiracy, I tell you. A freaking conspiracy. October’s only redeeming quality is that it holds my favorite holiday coming up. That’s right, Halloween. Halloweeeeeen baby! All I have to do is not kill anyone, gruesomely, for another day and it’ll be here. Of course I have to work tomorrow, which blows, but at least this damn month will be over.

And in other matters, my life really IS one big fucking Catch 22. How could I spend nearly a decade in higher learning at college to be such a big useless, goddamn waste of space? It blows my mind. And well, it pisses me off. Am I allowed to be pissed off because I'm useless? Regardless I am. I don't really know what else to say about it other than it pisses me off. I hate feeling like an invalid, but I guess I really am. I think all my motivation has got up and went out the window along with my dreams.

And I guess there it is, my willpower is leaving. I really am trying to tell myself that I can do it. But I think I'm fooling myself. But ignorance is bliss right? And really, I probably shouldn't be writing all this crap here where anyone can read it, though I'm sure no one will except for the couple of people on this site that remember me. Really its probably just my shitty mood talking anyway and the fact that I just wanted to vent somewhere.

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