Because I want to goddamn rage. Post contains lots of pissed off swearing, so don't like don't read.
I am so, soooooooo frustrated right now.
Work the last few days has been a pain in the ass, had one guy the other night just ruin my day, asshat that he was. And today, it was a long and busy day and I get off work wanting to maim someone.
So here I am looking for something to relieve stress. I think, I'll work on that Naruto lineart I was doing for the manga page, hell I don't remember the page number now... since I'm on this kick of colorizing manga pages for fun. Anyway, the thing is practically done, just a little touch here and there and I can start coloring it. The whole thing is tedious work, but it's busy work. Something I can concentrate on while not thinking or worrying about anything except, huh, that line needs to be thicker... if that makes sense.
So I finish that tiny bit and hurray pic is done time to play around with coloring! Until I try to hide the manga layer beneath... and my whole goddamn lineart goes with it.
You know, the lineart I spent three days tediously making it look perfect, kind of disappears. Apparently, it got merged down to the layer beneath it... the layer that's supposed to get erased. I was just working on this picture this morning before work and it was perfect... how I managed to merge the lineart down to the bottom layer... and still keep the layer intact, is beyond me. I play around with layers ALL the time too. I end up with dozens of layers in colored pictures too, so it's not like I don't know what I'm doing. I have NO idea how this happened.
So you know what that means, if the lineart, which might I say again I spent three days doing, isn't a separate layer, I CAN'T keep the lineart as a layer of it's own on top of any color I do. So basically... I'm back to the very beginning again. Just like that. It's all gone.
It's ALL gone.
To say that after the last couple of days and now this that I'm not beyond frustrated, oh fucking yeah I am. God-fucking-damnit I don't want to redraw and that bullshit. I'm pissed enough to want to throw my flat screen out the freaking window.
And to put he icing on the cake and SOOOOO not helping is the hubby. Men. I get the whole, it's only busy work, it's not like you're making money off this, so there isn't any reason to be mad about it, crap. Yes I know it wasn't original art or that I'm not making money off of it, fuck you very much, that doesn't help. Cause I sure as hell know he'd be pissed if it happened to him, fucking hypocrite.
It's just the fact that I put a lot of time and effort into it, no matter what the hell it was, and it's ruined. How can that not upset anyone? And I am sooo not drawing the whole thing over. Fuck that picture. I really wanted to color that shot too.
What is it with all kinds of bullshit happening the last couple of days? It takes a lot to get me riled up, but I AM riled up and I'm frustrated enough to cry. I mean holy fuck. I am not going to censor the cuss words out of my page today either. Don't like it, fucking ignore it.
I rather know the feeling right now.
