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I'm Shen. Nice to meet you.

Occupation: Computer and Electrical Engineering Student
Work: IEOP teacher (I teach foreigners how to speak english...not good)
I don't know what else you want to know?

If you need help at all, I'd be happy to help. I know a lot about programming and overall how this works, considering I've been here for years and I'm going to school for computer engineering. So, I hope you enjoy your stay and that I don't offend you.

I was weak. Thats why I needed you...needed someone to punish me for my sins...but thats all over now...I know the truth.
-James Sunderland: Silent Hill 2

Origins

Bleh, I hate the summer. Its too hot for my northern blood to handle. Seriously, I'm almost full blooded with the U.K. Scottish, Irish, and English, with just I think about six percent German. I'm half English, (because my father is full blooded english), and I am used to cold genetically. But yet, my skin looks like that of a fourth african after being outside for just two weeks without sunscreen. I don't burn either, much to the dissatisfaction of my mother.

I always found things like race interesting. Maybe because I was almost a full blooded something. I remember my grandfather always telling me that I should be proud to be a descendant of a blood line that has been around since the middle ages. He even showed me the family crest once. I can't go and look it up either and show you because my families last name was changed when they came to america cause it was too hard to pronounce. Damn americans.

So my brother, my mother, and I always make fun of my dad during Saint Patricks day because he is the only one without irish blood. Its always fun. But he never feels left out, otherwise it wouldn't be very fun, because we live next to the O'Reilly family who are almost full irish. If only the father didn't have just a little bit of german in him. But like I said, race of people and where they came from has always fascinated me because my family has so many stories from our past. We seem to remember everything from early on, which isn't something a lot of families have. Nor are a lot of families almost full blooded like mine.

So a question for you. What's in your blood?

SQUEE!

*Insert loud scream here* I AM SO FREAKIN HAPPY RIGHT NOW! So...a few days ago I was talking about music. Well, my favorite radio station holds a huge music festival every year with Rock bands. Every year it seems to get bigger and bigger. I've personally only been once and it was pretty awesome.

Now, for this year, they are bringing my absolute favorite band! I don't even know how they could get Avenged Sevenfold to come! They just got finished with a tour to promote their new CD, and there was a huge rumor going around that they might be coming. I didn't think it was possible at all, but there it is!

Now the only problem I have is that I'll be back to Ames by then...so I need to get off campus that day. I HAVE to go see them. I've never been able to see them in concert before and its bound to be AMAZING if I could actually go. The weird part about my fandom is I don't even know why they are my favorite band. I've just always liked them more than everyone else since I got their second CD. Its just one of those things I guess. Now...how am I going to do this?

Today has been such a roller coaster for me. This morning I was groggy and neutral, but then I slowly got angrier and angrier, and it was a pretty sucky morning because I had to move things all around my works complex. It wouldn't have been so bad if that crap hadn't been sitting in those unit for years without people touching them. And one guy even left some unused condoms, and porn movies in there. I just had no idea what to do with them, cause we can't sell them, and we DEFINITELY can't keep them. So I ended up just throwing them in the dumpster. Then my worker wasn't listening to me most of the time either so I had to keep yelling at him. I hate being the boss and none of the workers listen to you. Its just annoying. SO please listen to your boss, or if they are wrong, explain to them why you think that. They will listen better. I promise. Unless they are a dick...then just give them the finger and get fired.

Thor

GAH! Alright, so, I've been trying to enter this contest with a Thor drawing and I'm really getting angry. Its due tomorrow, which means I won't get it done, because I can't seem to get Thor right. Loki? Perfectly fine and easy. Thor? He's making me SOOOO angry. ARGH! If I didn't decide to try for the oliver design, I probably would have been fine. But NO, I had to use him as a guide and not Jack Kirby. I can't help it that I like Oliver's designs best...I just can't seem to imitate it the way I want.

And its frustrating me EVEN MORE because my specialty seems to be drawing males. Drawing the female body I find complicated and hard. Males are simple. The only hard part is the muscles or lack there of. I think thats my biggest problem right there. The way Oliver draws muscles. GAH! If I didn't have work tomorrow I might have been able to get it done. But nope. Another contest I will not be able to enter by the deadline. Why arm? Why?

Nyan!

Ya...So I've lost my mind because of all the drawing I did yesterday. Or at least thats what I'm assuming because I've been listening to Nyan Cat for over 1000 seconds. I'm definitely not sane anymore. Good news though is that I don't have three jobs to work. The levee job had too many people show up, so I didn't even try to apply for it. Let those other people do it, I have to fix the house anyway.

So...I've been playing around with music (as usual) and I have found my old Blink-182 CD! Its awesome! I'm back in my early teens! Also I've been listening to my music and finding what albums make me think of certain characters. Unfortunately, I haven't found anyone for any of my favorite bands albums. I'm sorry Avenged Sevenfold (A7X), I'll find someone for you, I promise.

I do love music a lot. And its not even all rock. I enjoy anything. Yes even country music. But it has to have good lyrics, a beat, and something that makes it stand out from other artists. Thats one of the reasons I enjoy A7X, they have some pretty good lyrics...for some of their songs...and all of their songs are definitely unique. Except for their first CD...that one was pretty generic.

I've also been getting into folk songs a lot lately. Especially good old irish folk songs. They are so interesting. One of the songs I always laugh at just because of the beginning. I mean, with a song that starts out "Patrick was a gentleman, he came from decent people," in a singsong like manner? Hilarious. Its even funnier than Rob Zombie singing about bubblegum. Some of this new stuff coming out is making me angry though. Like that E.T. song. I thought it was a pretty ok song, until they added that rapper to it. That just took so much from the song. It had pretty ok lyrics and turned it into crap. "I'm gonna probe you." I mean really?

Seriously, what is everyones obsession with sex? I know it sells, and I know that people have been singing about it for years, but it was never this out right. I guess thats just a problem I have with it. I think it stems from me not thinking that porn is art either. I understand why some photos or paintings are nude, but just outright pornography I don't consider art. Same goes for music. Singing about it artistically is one thing. Just out right saying it just to say it and gain an image in someones mind, I don't like.

Kids these days...

Levee walker

I'm thinking about getting another job. I'll be walking along the levee on the Missouri River. You see, the river has been hugely flooded and will be for the whole summer, or so its predicted. So they need people to walk along the levee and watch out for anything. It pays 12.00 an hour, which is nice, and its a full time job. I'd do it during the afternoon and nights, though, because I already have a job during the day and I might get another job on top of that. That makes THREE jobs. Being in college is hard...