So, I haven't been on in a while. I would make an excuse as to way, but honestly I just didn't want to. I didn't want to do a lot of things this summer because I've been depressed and had nothing to do since my hours at my job were lower than usual. It was a rather boring and not very interesting summer to be honest.

The reason I'm on is because I found out earlier today that a man who has been like a grandfather to be has cancer. He went in to the hospital to get a cyst removed and instead they found a tumor the size of an apple. They say its probably already in stage 3. I...I honestly don't know what to think.

Charlie and Martha Pearl are in my memories ever since I could start remembering things. They were best friends with my real grandma and grandfather and stayed that way for over 50 years. Charlie was there for my mothers birth and all the years she grew up. They are such amazing people and they love the outdoors and are so outgoing. For this to happen is just...it hurts. The only comfort I can take is that Charlie has lived for over 90 years. That doesn't really help me though when I think of how much pain he'll have to go through at the end.

I am going to go to a meeting for STAT 330 now. Hopefully I don't start crying in the middle of it.