I'm not really depressed, but I am in a grief state. It seems that this is where I come to when I am having these kinds of issues. I am still scared about where the world will take me. Will I end up in New York City? Back in Omaha? Stay in Ames? Its all up in the air and it terrifies me. On top of that, a makeshift grandmother of mine is in a nursing home and having memory issues. I don't know how much longer she is going to last.

I am also quite bored of being at my parents home and am ready to go to my own home. I really just want to be on my own and do what I want when I want. I have gotten so much freedom from being on my own I just need to be an adult. More later since I am bored and I no longer wish to talk.