We reached the product of 3 multiplied by 5. I don't know why I said that, but it was the first thing that popped up in my head. :/
This week was meh. It started off incredibly stressful because my dad yelled at me for not doing loans.. but in his head, that was a good reason to yell at me for other unrelated things. Once parents start yelling, it's hard for them to stop.
I wished that good colleges weren't this expensive. Not only does it make school a lot more stressful, but it'll a be a huge burden to me and my family if I don't find a good job afterwards. It just stacks more and more pressure on me as the loans keep building.
I wished that I could stop working my part time job so I could focus on studying more, but I feel like I need money every week to maintain my spending habits and my current bills. I'm also paying off one of my loans from last summer. Paying that off with my current part job is soo much fun. :
I wished that I could stop talking about money, but I can't. I also heard that one of my old coworkers got accepted into the same college that I'm in, except that she has a FULL scholarship. Sure, I want to be happy for her, but at the same time, I'm incredibly jealous.
Even though my friends who I met at my college might be in the same luxurious scholarship boat, I'm trying hard not to be judgmental. I'm probably jealous because she's a religious freak.. and you know how I am about some religions and their views on the actual universe. I'll stop there because I'll get shot at.
By the way, my school costs about 10k+ per semester. It's ridiculous.
I am likely to be financially screwed in the next decade. Yeah, she probably worked hard for it, but I'm working hard myself right now and I seriously need help. I wished that I could have it easy as those lucky folks.
I don't want to say that I'm angry at life because that would sound too angsty boy. I'll try my best to keep my posture up as a man. My loans will slowly increase just like our country's ridiculous billion dollar debt. I'm deathly afraid of both.
Will the loan sharks get me in the end?
