hello everyone.
right now, i'm not in the best of moods, nor the worst of moods.
i have no idea what to feel right now, to be honest.
i seriously hope that this passes away tomorrow because i really want to sleep on it.
there's just a huge rush of things going on through my head. complications and stuff that just makes me go crazy. questions, questions, questions, it's a nightmare.
i feel as if i don't belong anywhere, but i truly haven't experienced anywhere yet. i joined this one club in college and it felt like a closed net of people who were the same race as me. i just didn't belong.
i joined the video game club. it was cool at first, but after awhile, i got tired of it. some people were nice, but i really felt out of place.
yes, putting yourself in new situations will give you experience, but i'm really afraid of trying again. i have all this knowledge of things, yet i've never truly experienced or initiated the process to get them.
i hate the cliches of college life
i hate those who are blindly popular
i hate those who physically look down on to people
i don't know what to do.
i hear advice telling me to relax. i try to relax, but isn't it natural to feel like you don't belong somewhere?
i wished i knew the answers………
mary.
i don't know if i still like you or not.
but i need anyone's company…
sorry for being too personal.
goodnight.
