good morning everyone. i feel kinda weird this morning. maybe yesterday wasn't such a good day for me. i don't know! haha.
i feel like i lost and won yesterday with the girl i like. i'm sure you guys already know that i'm a guy already. so i guess i'll just make it more public now because a lot of community chat people are wondering. i like keeping things secret so i can fool around with them, but they could just come read my posts if they're desperate (i know anny was). maybe i'm inspired by the great or insane Zero.
argh, what am i saying about losing. i have an opportunity at hand! she really wants to see that youtube video of me performing, but i don't think that she'll like our music, haha. however, because of kels and cez telling me that it's pretty good, except our back-up vocalist, i have more confidence. i'm pretty sure our next open mic will be 6x better since we may have our drummer, bassist, keyboardists (hopefully), and an improved version of our back-up singer.
i feel as if i need to do something. another ice-breaker at least because how long have i been waiting just to ask her out? i did tell her to go to my concert this january earlier and she's planning to take some of her friends as well. hopefully that will all work because it supports our band and she'll see me play guitar first hand. this is so exciting! haha.
i mean, what am i doing? she was talking about what she'll do at the open mic with her friends. she's like, "we're going to bring signs and yell, (ugh, should i reveal my name to the people?) -Orange (fake)-! Orange!" after that her voice kinda dimmed down and her face got really red as she looked towards the side. AGH OBVIOUS! haha. i told some guys on the community chat about this and they thought it was adorable. now they want me to ask her out in front of everyone at the gig. i really don't think i could do it at the gig without making it awkward, but i have more confidence to ask her out.
besides, it's a gift to you if someone who's genuinely interested in you, leaves. so… girls really like stupid stuff like that? haha.
right now i'm also contemplating and having internal-debates about some things in don miguel ruiz's book, the four agreements. i'll talk about more about them when i finish reading about all of the agreements. just know that the second one is a really difficult one.
so, anyways. question of the day! if you had one thing about you that you could improve upon, what would it be?
for me, it would be my verbal volume skills. people don't hear me sometimes because i talk too low. i gotta yell out more!
