good morning everyone. i just woke up a few minutes ago, but i don't feel that well.
i feel like i failed yesterday with ssmlq. sure we did talk a fair amount of times, but nothing new happened. i hate when my shyness gets in the way, esp. with girls that i like. i'm constantly dealing with feelings of jealousy when she's talking to other guys, but these are human urges that i must let go from.
i constantly remind myself not to be jealous, but it is really hard to let them go. it should be simple to just shove them away. even the constant thoughts of assuming what she will do or what will happen if i do this or that are clogging my brain from thinking with clarity.
all i know is one thing, i shouldn't let these thoughts imprison me. i have to ask her out and speak more with my actions instead of mindlessly allowing the same negative thoughts to multiply by the thousands in my head.
i'm trying to live by the four agreements on this one. it's surely a difficult task, esp. for someone like me. ah, what am i saying? i have infinite and boundless potential just like everyone else.
i have to remember that i can make the impossible possible! just know that's the 100th+ time that i stole that quote from GL.
anyways, question of the day. this one is serious too. in an alternate reality where anything is possible with medication… if you could take a pill that would erase all the terrible memories along with those feelings in your head, would you take it to start anew? also consider you taking the pill another bad memory, so you would've forgotten that you've taken the pill.
i probably would, but i feel as if i might need the insight from the terrible memories sometimes to help better myself and my current situation. i mean, the day after taking the pill, i would be strangely happy without the exact reason why.
