Maybe some of you have felt this feeling before. I'm sure that most of you haven't though.
Well, I'm just going to ask… would you just hate it if someone you like has his or her heart's feelings redirected on someone else?
In my case, I still have a thing for her. She seems interested in me, since we talk for hours on end (she even wanted me to talk with her and her best friend), but she always always says that she will get married to a guy who lives on another continent since he's forced to live there now.
What's so great about him? He gets all the girls that he wants (my older friend who knows him says he's a "player")… but he won't let me get one who's been talking to me the most these past days…?
I'm not too sad over it, but I'm just a bit disappointed in her and in me. I guess I'm not that interesting enough to get her mind off that other guy who lives far far away from her and me.
Sorry for being depressing, but it's just something I have to get off my chest.
I've said countless times that I've been over it in my head, but it's hard to let it go.
What the optimistic side says:
"I'm just going to move on and look for other people. Other people who will talk to me and actually appreciate me for who I am… and I'll find someone who will love me the way I am today."
What the pessimistic-emo side says:
"I wished that she was into me more. I'm just too strange for her… that guy can get all the girls and I can't. This is unfair. I hate this and I hate her."
I'm stuck in the middle. I'm going to try my best to reach full optimism by the end of today.
