Over the past few days, I've been feeling down.
A lot of monetary issues have hit our family very recently and my parents are the frontline of these problems (as always).
But it's because of my admission into a very expensive college.

I feel horrible because they have to ward off the loans now until I graduate.
You might ask, why feel horrible now? Well, I've always been thankful, but they've never went this far until my college life began.

Even though I promised them that I'd do good… I just feel a huge amount of pressure on my back.
I feel like I owe them so much to the point that I can't face them.

I did question myself about if I didn't go to this college or go to college in general.
I just wished that I didn't have to be such a huge burden to my parents now in order to get what I want.

But in the end, it's all up to me to make it right.
I just hope that I do that in the next few years.