Here's another thoughts section. This has been reoccurring in my head for close to two months now.
Thoughts:
Over my past lifetime, I feel like I've done so much and I've learned so many new things. I have skills and capabilities of doing things not many people can do, such as:
Playing instruments (I can play drums, keyboard, bass, and guitar)
Cleaning and fixing computers software-wise.
Typing precise and organized notes (My WPM is 100+).
Creating decent art and video using Adobe Creative Suite.
Maintaining a 3.45 GPA (Average, but not bad).
Have an expanding knowledge in health (I'm subscribed to close to 10+ health-related websites via RSS).
Get complements from peers and professors on my college paper writing.
Have really good hand-eye coordination.
I feel like I'm versatile in a good number of aspects, but ultimately..
I feel like I deserve something...
Something I want or need....
Afterthoughts:
You can call this a very messed up mentality, but hear me out. I'm sure you've felt the same way during some event in your life. You felt like you've done so much and you believe you deserve something at least.
I know that there are people who do so much, yet expect nothing in return. I want to be strong like those people. My current way of thinking is do so much and get a lot in return.
MyConclusion:
Maybe this is all in my head. Maybe our positive actions do ultimately affect others. Perhaps I'm receiving something indirectly?
The main thing I'm trying to learn is to lower my expectations. Doing all of these things only to receive something specific from another party doesn't sound fun.
Maybe we do receive something unexpectedly different in the long run.. Hmm, this is starting to feel like a very open topic.
If you have anything that's thought provoking about this topic that you want to add, please do.
