Name: Nikki
Age: 27
DOB: Nov. 24 1986
Height: 5ft roughly - What? I'm short
Believe in Love at First Sight: No.
Relationship Status: Single / Don't care
Here lately, I've come to discover, it doesn't matter whether I get married or not. It doesn't even matter if I stay single. Thing is, I may or may not be ready for it. What's important is being content with what you have.
I have a lot of favorite anime, but a few of them include: Code Geass, Trigun, Fullmetal Alchemist and Fairy Tail.
Favorite music: rock / hard rock / heavy metal, pop - I like things that people have said doesn't fit me.
My all time favorite band is the old Guns N' Roses. The new one sucked. End of story.

Fluttershy

How is every pony? I hope you're doing well. lol So after seeing Fluttershy go berserk in an episode of My Little Pony a few days ago, I think I'm starting to like Fluttershy even more. I think she's becoming my favorite pony. Random thought, but it's My Little Pony! How could you not want to make random comments about it? lol

I'm Seriously Thinking of Just Giving Up

There is nothing left for me. Why do I wake up every morning? Why am I still here? My life is meaningless and pointless. All I do is wake up and do the same things over and over again. It's like I'm trapped in some nightmare, and there's no escape. I may as well just be a zombie. I don't belong in this world, and I never have. I know... pull it together and stop just dragging everyone down with me. I just... you know... nevermind...

It Gets Better, Right?

As I sit here and search for a new job, so I can leave my current job because I can't stand it, I'm having trouble finding anything. I feel like the world is going to move on without me, and I'm just going to get stuck living the same life over and over again, like I'm doomed to remain alone and in my parents' house with nothing but a depressing retail job. When talking to a guy friend about boyfriends and what not, he told me, it will get better. I don't know... lately, I find myself wondering if it will. The question I have to ask is if it gets better, or if some people are doomed for failure.

Is This Okay?

So just now, I was thinking, trying to picture myself as a mommy. I really can't picture it. I mean, maybe I could be a mom, but eh... as I think about myself and the way I am, I honestly can't see myself raising a person. Sure, I want kids one day, but I'm starting to wonder if I'm really cut out to be a parent. Also, even if I thought I wanted a boyfriend and a spouse one day, I got to thinking about that too. Maybe I'm not really cut out for that either. I mean, I know one should be positive and not think they couldn't be with someone, but I wonder if it's also okay to accept you may never wind up with anyone, that maybe you weren't meant to be a lover, wife or mother, but maybe you were just meant to be a friend. Yesterday, I thought about how I'm happy just to have people who are willing to stick around and call me their friend. As long I'm still called friend, it's all I need. I honestly don't need anything else. Sure, I live kind of a lonely life, but my online friends and what real life friends I can contact anymore are all I have. I hate losing friends, and as long as someone is still there for me, I'm fine.

Why Would She Leave Him?

Okay, so after watching this video, I don't understand why the girl in it just leaves this guy. Okay, maybe you get worried, and you hate that he comes home beaten up all the time, but it's what he does. If you don't like it, just tell him it bothers you. Obviously the man loves you if he's willing to come home to you every night, and he deserves to be loved when he comes home broken, bleeding and bruised.I mean, okay, so we don't know the whole story, but I mean, I might be rather impressed that I had a strong man like that, and I'd be all like, "I hate seeing you hurt, but why don't you let me help you feel better. I love you, babe." Or, I think I might... lol, I don't know. I haven't been in a relationship really, and I'm kind of shy.