First, let me get this out of the way. I have decided, ending anything won't be necessary. One of my friends was talking to me, and according to him, I'm not as bad as I think. He said, I need to give myself some credit, and not beat myself up so much. It's hard, but I can try to learn that. My heart wouldn't be so broken to pieces if I learned to do that. I'm really glad though for him because I think he's one of the reasons I will get to Heaven when I die.

The other thing I have to post about is this: What would you do if you were the one waiting for someone to save you, or you were the one that had to save someone? I have know idea why, but I can always picture in my head that I'm being saved by someone. I wonder though what I would do if I had to save someone, and what if this someone was someone I really cared about? I wish I knew why I was kidnapped all the time in my dreams and day dreams. I'm always the one being saved. Lol I only hope those dreams are not premonitions because I'm screwed if they are.