Why the heck is it that I still care? I don't get it. Why am I still questioning whether there's anything appealing about me? Why am I asking myself if most guys think I'm boring? Gah... I'm so dumb, I shouldn't care about love anymore, and yet I do. If there is supposed to be someone for everyone, he'd better hurry up and come down here then. I'm tired of playing the guessing game, trying to figure out if someone likes me. If someone likes me, I wish he'd just tell me. Is it really so hard? "Nikki, I think you're a nice girl, and you're very pretty. Would you mind going out with me?" Me: "Sure." See, that's not so hard, is it? Of course it's different in reality I guess. I still think my brain is an idiot. Yes, I'm calling my brain an idiot instead of me. I'm always wrong in my gut instincts. I have no instincts. Most people can easily figure out the way someone feels, but I struggle with it. I can tell basic emotions, like if someone's angry, sad, happy or other wise, but due to my lack of interaction I suppose, I don't know how to read a man. Meaning, even if a man was interested, I'd have no idea. lol it's no wonder I'm single. All I ever do is, "Hi. How are you? I'm doing pretty good." *scans items and bags them*. "Okay sir / mam your total is $241.07. Alright, here's your change and your receipt. Have a good day / evening." Yep, this pretty much describes every day for me except when I'm off. Oh, and then, there's the RP, random chats on IM and the random crap I do on facebook. And then, I go to church on Sunday. *sigh* I should just be happy being single and quit having these discussions. I talk about the same old crap all the time. Why can't I just give up?