Why can I never fall in love? Any time there's a chance I might fall for someone, it gets shot down, and I wind up alone again. It's as if someone is telling me, "Nope, you're not allowed to fall in love, Nikki." Even my hormones seem to tell me this since they're so out of whack, I don't even have the physical feelings I should have. I don't have the libido I should have. I have love in my dreams, and it seems if I want to be in love, I can only turn to my dreams. My dreams seem to be the only place where I fall in love and am loved in return, or that I'm allowed to fall in love and something not get in the way. It's peaceful there. I wonder though, why my dreams can't come true. Even when someone confesses they would date me, distance is in the way. All I get is unrequited love or it ends just as quickly as it began. Why are some people meant for it, and others not? Why do some people have to look on while all their friends are happy, and they just have to be happy for them? I love fairy tales and yet, they never come true. They really don't exist. I guess that's why they're called fairy tales though, right? Fairies don't exist either.