I kind of wish I could just be a zombie. I don't even know why I feel the way I do half the time. I mean, maybe I'm the only one that feels this way, but sometimes I feel like feeling love for someone is pointless except for familial love, and I don't need the anger I get. I don't like that I'm depressed all the time. I don't like the feeling of loneliness, and happiness comes and goes. Happiness is the greatest emotion. If I could just be a happy zombie, I wouldn't mind. Yet, at the same time, I want to be in love because it looks so good in my mind. Living in this life, I'm not even sure what I'm living for. I mean yes, the goal is to get to Heaven when I die, and I learn about my Heavenly Father, but other than that, there doesn't seem to be a point.