Hey there, it's been quite a while since I reported any life signs over here. Merry Christmas and happy New Year!
Hope you all had happy holidays! At least I did, but only Christmas could be considered as a happy holiday for us over here. This time, I come with some really sad news. A week ago, my father had a heart attack and passed away.
He hadn't reached even 60. And what would have been his 55th birthday was a couple days ago. My mother is simply torn. We all are, but she's the one who's been suffering the most. We've received phone calls and visits from family and friends everyday, and we're really grateful to you all for being there with us on our hour of need.
Although I keep wondering over and over again why did he have to go so soon, I also feel happy for him. He was very happy on his last days. We all were. He was an architect, and he had been getting his hands on more and more projects to work on. He was about to buy a car. He had mentioned something about getting one some time ago (our family has 5 members and we've got only one car, it was difficult to pick up people from school, work, do the shopping, hang out, etc.)but he never made it official, and actually it was I who received a phone call from the car selling business. They were looking for my dad. It seemed he was about to confirm the car deal. It was awful for me to say it: "umm, he died a couple days ago". They didn't believe me.
-"Excuse me, am I talking to the -enter last name- family?"
-"Yes, ma'am."
-"So..the architect...?"
-"Yes, he passed away a couple days ago. He had a heart attack."
-"Are you sure we are talking about the -insert last name- architect?"
-"Yes, ma'am. He was my father."
-"Oh my... I'm really sorry."
She didn't believe me 'till I said he was my dad. I told the story to my mother. I wonder if I should have. She cried. A couple days later, talking to my father's friends, they told us that they knew about the car. It was supposed to be a surprise for us.
Plus, we have been contacting the people related to my dad's unfinished projects. They've all been really nice, and they want to help finish his work for him. We're really, really grateful for all they've done for us.
Our family has 3 children, being me the oldest one. I've given up on planning studying abroad, or at least traveling alone anytime soon. I'm going to be here for my mother and two young brothers, maybe start working soon, keep studying, and simply move on.
I'm just 18, just thinking about the future, wondering what career will I pick, where would I like to work...I never imagined my dad wouldn't be here for me when I finally got into university, or started traveling, or proudly showed him a new artwork.
Nevermind that. I know you're watching me right now. I've already talked to you by praying, and I know you can hear me.
We love you, Dad. We know you're watching us for above. Thank you so much for all what you've done for us, we're here right now thanks to you. And although the pain we feel is so strong, we have faith, and we know we'll make it. Thanks for all.
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I'll probably be abscent for a while again now. I won't keep on working on comics or fanarts anytime soon.
My next project: an animal poster dedicated to my dad. It'll take a while, since I'm trying to make it my best work so far. I'll probably start tomorrow. It'll likely be about a big cat.
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Hope you had some nice vacations! And for the ones who are still free, keep enjoying! =D
Sibela
