Please ignore this post if you don't wish to read my ramblings. This post will have nothing to do with anime or manga.
I've had nothing but trouble with computers since the start. Maybe I'm not meant to have one. I got my first computer when I was 16. It was the year 2004. The only reason I remember is because that year was memorable for me. And not for good reasons.
It was good, but bulky. And it was two years until I got it connected to the internet. The internet was my downfall as I started downloading all sorts of things. After a couple more years, it officially died.
Before that, though, I tried to get it fixed. A man at the store suggested that I get an external hardrive to transfer all my files. I was paranoid of losing everything, so I got one. But I should have personally made sure to transfer the files myself, as the guy lost half my info. It was mostly pictures, and lots of Word documents (some of which can't be found again, though I've looked), but still. It hit me hard.
I started using another computer. Same problems. That one didn't make it a whole year.
Due to my paranoia of losing files, I didn't lose a single one this time. Yay, me.
Now I have a laptop. I am determined not to download anything anymore. But today, I accidentally erased a lot of my music files. And the only way to get them back is to start collecting them again. Which means downloading. Something I vowed not to do again, even though it hurt to do so.
I can live without the files. But I would rather not be in this place to start with. I am thoroughly depressed over this. Much like I was when I found out I lost all those files when my first computer died.
I am usually so careful. Today showed me I can never be careful enough. As a sensitive person, this has affected me greatly. And I wish so much that it didn't happen. Or. I just wish that I didn't care
I wish I didn't care.
~Trustless
