i woke among the tulips their vibrant yellow blinding me as i gazed at their beauty and i see a shape through the haze i move but i am unwilling to destroy the tranquil place in which i lay. torn between being the destroyer of beauty and the hunter of elegance....

i look up and see the bright deep blue sky enveloping the world and a sense falls upon me the feeling.. the idea.. the knowledge.. that i dont belong to such a beauty to such a world as this. unknown tears fall and as the they touch the tantalizingly vibrant flowers they turn to ash and the sky turns to darkness.... a feeling of remembrance embraces me as i look at the desolate landscape. A sad smile crosses my face a sense of belonging occurs and as i look desperately for the beauty that fled from my sight a want touches the very deepest parts of my soul?... heart?... and as i slowly stand tall i run from the darkness and destruction to find the creature that escaped the sadness of this cold abandoned entity that is me...

i run through the decayed Forrest and the warmth slowly begins to come back to this cold place and i spot a flower upon the ground a flower iv never seen before a color iv never gazed upon and a feeling i thought lost.. i hear whispering words unidentifiable to me not harsh.. nor spiteful.. words unaccustomed to me i turn and their she is a pale beauty and as i think she is some illusion some figment of a dream that could never be mine.. a breeze blows through my world and with it light a light so good and bright.. i thought it could only be a joke a game played at my expense so i walk towards her. the light seemingly radiating from her. to good to be true.. to fragile to be in this place.. and as i slowly touch her to get rid of this taunt i realize she is warm.. real... a overwhelming sense of happiness seizes me i hesitantly touch her afraid shed disappear at the slightest touch. i feel shamed for even touching such an innocent beauty and in a instant my loneliness is gone and as are lips touch warmth ensnares me everything is gone and as we part i hold her unwilling to give up something so precious and as i gaze into those intriguing eyes filled with curiosity i awake.. i awake to darkness to quite and than a smile crosses my face

i am the dark that protects the light the shadow that guides you the forgotten who loves you and the heart that beats for you