Today is my..........

Birtyday Today!!!!!! I was 10 at the time the attack happened :/
It kinda sucked it happened, but i didnt quite understand at the time.
But now I feel bad. Well I hope my day goes well today and thanks to my friends that have wished me a happy biryday so far!!!! I love you all my friends. XD
and i was born on 9/11/1991

New Tablet

As an early birthday present. (my birthday is on the 11th which is a Friday) Ill be 18!!! But back to what i was saying my grandma got me a Wacom Bamboo Fun pen tablet. And this is my 1st one. XD Im so excited that I have one now. Ive used a little bit so far. Im trying to learn how to use it. :D ^_^ Im so happy now. I hope I can make a lot of good art with it.

Pain of Loss

Enduring the pain of loss
Putting yourself in to a self-induced sorrow
Wanting to rid of it all
But ending up with nothing

You worry and stress over the little things
You're close to losing your head
Thinking of death and what to do
Cradling your head in your hands

Noone is left to love you
You search your days of time past
The ones that once did love you have left
The world has taken away forever

Fighting the urge to kill
To beat and to injure
You think you've found another soul
Trying to communicate with them

They shun and betray you
You fight back, strking them down
Their body lifeless in front of you
Blood draining
Being soaked into the ground

Your feelings darkened, none left
Corrupted until your not the same

Is to be of Desperation

Is to be one of
Desperation

Over the longing
of something
of sentimental Value

To hold it tightly
till near crushing
blow

Longing even more so
for the
cradled warmth of
a held tight fear

Unleashed through mouth
Words now sought for

Wrought in the mind
of the despaired anger

Fought till the grasp
of a hand
cut deep, bone shown white

With the sharp love
dripping cold, pooled
under heel

pursed tightly the soft
essence of touch
between tongue and teeth

recedes back into the
folds of reality

Desimated is the conscious
of the dreams washed

Fades to black
photo perfection sharp focus
Lost realms in solitude untold

Lifeless Cruelty

The world can be cruel and harsh also at times unforgiving You get through it ok at times then like that your suffering Sometimes your sake doesn't matter Your friends can ditch you and your family say goodbye...

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