Does anyone ever get the feeling that one of your parents doesn't really know you? At all? I do. I really, really do. I am so tired of my dad. I have never wanted to get out of the house so much before.
So last night, he comes into my room and starts sprouting nonsense about me not being a "whore, bitch, skank" etc etc and not to let any boy call me that. At first I was like "...um, okay. I don't get where this is coming from." And then I realize: HE THINK'S I'M ON MY COMPUTER BECAUSE I'M TALKING TO A GUY.
AT 11PM.
WTF.
First off, why would I let a guy call me that? I wouldn't. End of discussion. I hate men who act like a woman is some item they can do whatever they want with or say whatever they want to. I'm very feminist in that way.
Second,I'm not that type of person. I'm the girl who NEVER lets a guy do what he wants with me. I am not some "booty call" because no one will be geting anything out of me. Until I marry, I am a Nun. NUN. I have already stated numerous times that I intend to get married before I actually "do" anything. (If you know what I mean) I'm a born again Christian. I have very high standards. My mom catches wind of it. My sisters. My brothers.
BUT NOT MY DAD?
I don't know what is wrong with him. He seems to think that because I'm sixteen I'm a typical teenage girl. THERE IS NO SUCH THING. Sure, I like guys. Sure, I'd like to have a boyfriend. But I'm really not interested in getting one until I'm prepared to marry. (How I feel about it: What if I fall head over heels for the guy? I'd rather be able to marry him than not) Most of the time when I'm online, I talk to Chero, RP- where I give out no personal info- playing Pockie Ninja or writing something. WRITING.
It hasn't just been last night either. It's ALWAYS like that with him. "She's up in her room on her computer? It must be some guy." Even when I went to Homecoming and told him over and over again that I was going with him because he was my friend, and as soon as I get home and tell him I want to hang out with a group of friends that he happens to be in the following weekend, he starts off with, "Now I know you probably wanna 'be' with this boy..."
WTF
AGAIN.
He never listens to anything, and whenever I disagree about something, he decides I'm being rebellious. And no, I'm not talking about what I wear. I basically dress like a boy and still manage to look cute, so that's not a problem. It's POLITICS. Or RACE. "White people always..."
NO.
THERE ARE THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE OF OTHER ETHNICITY THAT DO STUPID/HATEFUL THINGS, NOT JUST WHITE PEOPLE.
GOSH.
THERE.
I'M DONE.
RANT OVER FOR NOW.
But THIS is the reason why I will irrevocably decline going to college close to home so I don't have to pay to be in a dorm. I could not stay in the house, after being an adult and have to deal with this, especially because I know that at that point, if I disagree, he'll say "THIS IS MY HOUSE, YOU DO WHAT I SAY."
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Done.
-A very pissed off Hime has finished her post.
