I don't want Chero to see this, because I've probably been stressing her out with my brattyness.
I want to say I’m not upset, but I am.
I’ve been trying to get him to buy those damn shinobi shoes for me for weeks. I didn’t want to get them late. Out of the three things I wanted for my birthday, the freaking shoes were one of them.
I won’t be getting them.
If I DO get them, I’ll be able to use them next year, but not this
year. I wonder who I’ll go as next year. Maybe not even someone from Naruto, but that’s not my concern. I just wanted a pair of shoes.
I’m tired of my mother telling me that I can do “this” and “that” to compromise. This convention is my birthday gift. I planned out most of this myself. I bought my own pieces for my cosplay, and even though it’s not official, it’s cheaper than anything on the internet and pretty decent. I’m really just being a brat about this, I know, but I’m really upset. I haven’t gotten much support at all. In fact, when I wanted to give up, my mom ENCOURAGED me to give up. What? Is she serious? Yes. She is. And was. It’s getting on my nerves. It especially gets on my nerves because every time she says something like that, I FIND SOMETHING I CAN USE.
I don’t hate my parents. I’m not mad at my dad. I just wanted to cosplay. I just wanted to have fun at this convention, but how things are going...
I know my dad doesn’t like anime. I even asked him numerous times if he was SURE about going because it would suck for him if he had to walk with us for however long we were in there each day and deal with all of the anime stuff. It would also start sucking for ME because we would have spent all of that MONEY just for him to complain. I want to glomp some Sasukes. I want to yell at some Suigetsus. I want to take a picture with Johnny Yong Bosch and tape him saying, “I, Lelouch vi Britannia command you...to DANCE!” I want to see LM.C up close! I want to enjoy their music! I WANT TO HAVE FUN! I want to be complemented or even hit on by some cute guys, whether my parents are around or not and enjoy myself!
I’VE WANTED TO GO TO A CONVENTION SINCE I BECAME AN OTAKU!
I feel like it’s not going to work out at all. It’s not the SHOES that make me think that. IT’S THAT I FEEL LIKE I WON’T BE ABLE TO DO ANYTHING, AND THIS WAS MY ONE BIRTHDAY WISH.
There.
I said it.
Like the brat that I am.
At least I’m not as bad as Sasuke.
*sighs and walks away*
~Hime
