After dropping off the grid for a week was nice and I really needed it. Thanks for all the messages telling me to keep my head up. They were really nice to read and it was exactly what I needed.

The funeral was nice and I got to hang with the cousins which was really nice but I wish it was under different circumstances. But there was one thing that really pissed me off. Wait scratch that two things that pissed me off. The first being Enya. If I ever hear that woman again I will rip out her vocal cords. The other was that magical question that most people don't realize what exactly they're asking; "How are you doing?" I had to catch myself a couple times because my first reaction is always good, but wait a minute I'm not good. I didn't know what to say. I don't wanna be a douche and go, "Prettyshitty." So I didn't say anything and let my facial reactions talk for me.

So going off this, I have been asked this question all fucking week. So I have just been saying, "awful." And walking away. I don't want people feeling bad for me and adding extra problems to add to their lives. So in all honesty this sums up how I am.