I rejoice in what I have and I know that fresh new experiences are always ahead. I greet the new with open arms. I trust life to be wonderful. – Louise Hay
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Whoo. Been a busy week.
Monday, I didn't do much. Tuesday, I hung out with some friends, and we watched Django: Unchained. Anyone ever seen it? It's hilarious, a really good movie. The bag man scene is my favorite. I keep watching it every day, and I have it memorized. It's great.
Wednesday continued my friend and I's Sherlock marathon.
Thursday, I had job interview with a very promising company. Then I spent the evening with a good friend of mine. We spent a long time in acute care then went to Pizza Ranch for supper, and then we just hung out at her place. It was fun.
Friday, I went out with her again and went drinking with her coworkers and then some of our other friends showed up. It was a good night.
Saturday, we went shopping and booked ourselves a facial and a massage for next Sunday, I am so excited!
Tuesday can't get here fast enough. I get to go home and get a minivacation!
I got all of my secret santa gifts done. My people were Klassic, Clueless101, and zombieusagi. I hope you all like them!
I don't think I'll get a chance to be on again before I go home, so I hope you all have a wonderful holiday season!
Been awhile!
Let's go through my week.
Let's see, Monday, at work, we had an office meeting, and I was informed that I won an award for staying behind when the building's power went out for over 6 hours. I was one of three people that stayed behind out of the 50+ people that work in the building. I didn't get a lunch that day or anything, which was fine. I basically read all day. I had to stay to answer the phones and then put them through to someone's voicemail anyway. It was really pointless for me to stay behind. But they gave me the Spot Member's Award along with a $25 gift card to Applebees, my favorite restaurant.
I got all of my holiday cards sent out!
Not too late if you still want to get one from me!
I tried to keep the ones that I sent to you guys all holiday neutral since I don't know what you all celebrate. :)
Joe called me last night for the first time in a very very long time. Just to talk. We talked for about 40 minutes. Usually a lot of our phone calls end up being weird silence for most of the time, but this time, we actually talked and caught up with each other, like we should be. Before we hung up, I thanked him for calling me, that I missed him doing that. And he told me he's trying to be better. :)
We talked about work, walking around in my shady neighborhood (I live in the ghetto of the city, no joke. It is beyond not safe to walk around outside by yourself especially at night), and just whatever came to mind.
Then I ended up going over to Joe's at about 2:30 because I wanted to see him, and we watched two episodes of Sons of Anarchy. I think I need to get into that show. It looks pretty awesome. We had sexy time and fell asleep.
WE woke up at 10:30, and he went to sporkle.com (I think) and we were doing some of the quizzes. I'm decent at the movie quizzes. But he likes to keep me educated and teach me. So he did some geography ones and made me go through Europe's countries. LEt's just say I kinda suck. I got 11 of the 57(?) possible countries the first time through. Then he finished it for me, getting them all right and told me to memorize it so I could do it again. I got 37 of 57 that time. Still needed help. Then he's like, Africa, go. And all I could get was Egypt. I'm not good being put on the spot. I felt dumb when he started listing off all the other countries. I knew a lot of them. I should have gotten more. Oh, well. But then I watched him name every single country in the whole world and get them all right.
HE is a smart cookie. And it is so hot.
I spent most of the week trying to finish Dragon Age Origins, which I did at midnight last night, finally! On to Dragon Age 2, today, which I've already beaten numerous times, but it'll be fun to go back through it and catch all the things that reference origins that I didn't get the first few times around.
That's all that's new with me.
What's been new with you guys?
Hello, everyone!
Tis the season to start sending out holiday cards! And i want to send some to all of you! So I was hoping that if you guys felt comfortable enough pming me with your addresses, i will send them out! I won't share your addresses with anyone. It'll be my eyes only. I just want to share in the holiday cheer!
Hey, guys!
Gosh, I feel like I haven’t updated in awhile!
How was your Thanksgiving, if you celebrate? Hope it went well!
I had a 4 day weekend, basically because I took Friday off. It was a MUCH needed break. Usually when I go home, I feel trapped and suffocated because so many people want to do so many things all at once, and I get no time to really relax. This time was different. I didn’t do much.
Thursday, we had our big, Thanksgiving Day lunch. I ate too much, of course, but tiss the season! Then we played catchphrase most of the afternoon. Have you ever played? It’s a fun game. Especially when we got my uncle involved. He was my partner and spent more time staring at the word than he did giving me clues. But he was fun and helped make everyone else have fun, which is new for him. At one point he was saying it was a type of metal, and I yell out metal. So embarrassing. I need to think before I speak. Oh well. It was a good time. Then my mom thought it’d be fun to go shopping. No. Walmart was terrible. So we went to Hastings, a book/cd/movie/music/game shop. Does anyone know what I’m talking about or is that a Nebraska only store? Anyway, I got the Star Trek into Darkness movie along with Iron Man 3, and Pacific Rim all for $11. I was pretty stoked about that. Then we met up with my other uncle and cousin and hung out with them for a bit.
Joe texted me on Thursday. I didn’t text him before I left nor did I see him before I left. I wanted to see what would happen. So he asked me if I went home, and after telling him I did, he was being super sweet and amazing. Whenever he tells me I’m sexy, I generally tell him ‘I’m glad he thinks so,’ and he always has this sweet way of saying it’s not about what he thinks, I just am. Him just thinking about me turns him on. We were talking about sexual things and asking each other what we would like done that we haven’t yet, exchanged pictures. And i had to stop sending pictures because I had to keep leaving my room because i share it with my younger brother, and I didn’t want to wake him, so Joe told me to send him some more on Friday.
Friday, I did some chores around the farm in the morning and went to watch Catching Fire in the afternoon with my brothers. We got there super early and were the first ones in the theater, they were playing music, so we kind of just got up and started dancing up front. it was fun. Got home and watched Oblivion which I wasn’t real impressed with.
I forgot to send Joe more pictures. Mainly because I wanted to see if he’d say anything about it.
Saturday, didn’t do much all day except went shopping with my dad and then went out to eat. Watched a lot of football. It was a good last day with the family.
Joe texted me saying he hadn’t heard from me, which surprised me. He’s not usually one for texting so much or talking to me so many days in a row, which sounds worse than it should… But he kept telling me how much he misses me and how much he wished I was there with him or home with me, which really surprised me. And I don’t know if he really meant it or if it was in the heat of the moment type of thing. but he was telling me I didn’t really know just how much he missed me. He missed me ‘to insane degrees’. And also told me I had no idea how much he cares about me. And I was saying how my family really wanted to be with me, and he told me i should be with him. He’s just never been so persistent and affectionate via text before. I liked it.
Sunday I came back in the afternoon and went over to Joe’s right away. He must have wanted to see me pretty badly because he wasn’t feeling well and still wanted me to come over. We did stuff and then just laid around and watched football. I love that when I have a question about something, like this week was intentional grounding, he explains it and then knows when I don’t really quite get it, so he’ll go back and demonstrate it for me. He just knows me so much better than I would have ever given him credit for. I love him for that.
As much as I love my family, I also realized why I don’t like going home so often. When I’m home, it’s the one play where I can do what I want when I want. And they make me feel selfish when I tell them something I want. I’m not saying we can’t do what everyone else wants to do, just stating my opinion.
Or we were talking about religion, and I told them part of the reason I don’t go to church is because I don’t agree with a lot of the catholic practices. I mean, catholics are against contraceptives, which I take, no sex before marriage, which I still do, think that by homosexuals being allowed to get married, our society is going to anarchy, among other things. But those two things are what upset me the most. I don’t want to support someplace that believes in that. I told them these are my morals and who I am. Then they just teased me and made fun of the rest of the weekend about it. I’m not gay or a lesbian so it shouldn’t apply to me type of thing. Screw that. Or I call them out when they are being sexist or racist, and they’ll tease me about that. I know they don’t mean anything by it, but it just bugs me.
Yesterday was back to work for me!
Tonight I’m suppose to go to a wine tasting with a ‘friend’ who I try to tell her no so many times, but she just doesn’t get the hint, so now I’m stuck going, and I can’t even drink the wine because I’m on these antibiotics that won’t allow me to have any sort of alcohol. I can’t even accidentally swallow the Listerine I use for mouth wash or it will make me violently throw up. So, ya.
"Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore… And because of this, there are not many left out there…"
Many of you will recognize this from that meme thing going around.
I don’t really think I could completely explain how much I dislike this statement. Did you know that if you type that sentence into google, it gives you pages to “Why Men Aren’t Real Men” according to EliteDaily, “Why do nice guys always finish last?” from GoAskAlice.columbia.edu, and Datehookup.com has several: “This is How Every Woman Should be Treated” and “Are there any Good Guys Out There Anymore?”
Who has the right to define what a ‘real’ man is? Or that every woman should be treated one way versus another when every woman is different from the next. The ‘typical’ woman loves to be smothered with love and flowers and cutsey, cliched gifts, right? Wrong. Some people are private and chose to keep to themselves. Some people choose not to send flowers because they don’t need to prove to everyone else that they love their significant other. As long as the two people involved know, what’s it to you? I can’t stand being smothered. I need my space. I don’t want to spend every waking moment with the man that I love. I need my me time. This is unfathomable to some people. And that’s fine. I’m not judging you on that, so do not judge me. Don’t assume to think that because the girl before me liked something that I will, too. I’m my own person, and more often than not, I’m not going to like what she likes.
I was dating a guy that people would agree wasn’t good for me. I wouldn’t agree with that, but I seemed to be defining what I thought of the guy based on everyone else’s perception of him. They only saw the outside, and the things I talked about, which were rarely about all the good, fun times we had. Why is it we are more readily able to complain about someone than we are to praise them? It’s something I’ve come to grips with about myself and am trying to change.
So the guy I was seeing had a roommate, who just so happened to be in love with me. And more often than not, he would tell me I deserved better. He claimed that the world always put nice girls like me with guys like my boyfriend and overlooked the nice guys like the roommate. I hate to be the one to break the news to you, but my boyfriend wasn’t so bad of a guy. My boyfriend at the time knew what he wanted and what he’d be willing to do for it. He tells it like he sees it and isn’t going to say something if he doesn’t mean it. He keeps to himself and people don’t always like that. He wasn’t affectionate with me in public very often. I am more than okay with that. Public displays of affection is not my thing. I don’t like it when other people do it, so I’m not about to make other people feel uncomfortable by doing it in front of them. If you choose to do that, go ahead. Just saying, I don’t. Now, when my boyfriend and I were alone, his good side would come out. He liked to cuddle and hold hands and we’d talk about everything under the sun. He didn’t push himself on me. He took things slow. He puts up with my randomness, he makes me feel like a better person. I changed a lot because of him. I’ve learned to be more accepting of myself, and that’s been something I have struggled with all my life. Somehow, he made me see that I am beautiful. At least to him, and that’s all that really matters. I have stopped comparing myself to other women because there’s really no point. You are you and I am myself. I have my good points and bad. You have good points and bad. We’re the same, but different. Of course, we had our fights, and they were big ones. We have our problems, which I am more than willing to work through.
But all everyone else saw was the indifference and heard about the fights. That’s it. And they had a preconceived notion of him that is hard to just drop. Doesn’t mean that’s how he really is, but no one seems to be willing to listen to me about it.
The roommate, on the other hand, the self appointed ‘good’ guy was an annoying little twit that I didn’t find attractive in the least. While I have no doubt he knows how to treat a woman well, I just couldn’t stand the part of himself that was so selfish and conceited. The world was out to get him and shit on him. He had no idea that he was hurting the ones around him, or if he did, he didn’t care. If you had a story to tell, he had a better one. If you had a bad day, his was worse. I’m telling you something to see if you can beat me. I just want to talk, and he wasn’t really willing to listen.
So, the roommate was the ‘good’ guy and my boyfriend at the time was the ‘bad’ guy. However, I’d take the bad that came with my boyfriend rather than giving up a part of myself to be with the ‘good’ guy. No one else should either. A girl shouldn’t have to feel bad for following her heart. You can’t really judge a person without getting the whole story. Just looking at a couple, you have no idea what it’s like when they are alone.
Yes there are good guys that get screwed over, but if they are really as great as everyone is making them out to be, they’ll find someone who is compatable with them. They just haven’t found the one, yet. Maybe that good guy is treating every girl the same, the way society thinks a good boyfriend should be when, in fact, you can’t do that. There’s a reason things aren’t working out for the good guy, but it’s not the girls’ job to figure out what that is.
