I rejoice in what I have and I know that fresh new experiences are always ahead. I greet the new with open arms. I trust life to be wonderful. – Louise Hay
"You can be the worlds greatest hero, or its most mild mannered citizen, the only person who can write your story, is you!" - Jonathan Kent to Clark Kent
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My family and I have just lost a very important member of our family. Lorraine, our cat. I'm sure many of you are like, wow. What a weird name for a cat. But, that was my grandma's name, and my brother and I thought that my grandma was reincarnated into our cat. I was 12 at the time, and my brother was 8. I don't believe that anymore, of course, but, this cat has been with us for almost 10 years. I haven't seen her a whole lot in the past 3 years because of college. It's true. You don't realize what you have until it's gone.
I hate the phrase, people never change. Mainly because, it isn't true. People do change. Maybe not to the degree that is to your liking, but they do. Some people are just so blinded by their dislike that they can't see the truth that has been laid out before them.
Take me for example. I used to be this angry kid. I'll admit I was pretty judgmental of others. I was shy, could never talk to people I didn't know, and I let people push me around. But now, I've done a 180. I have more patience and don't get angry as much. And, when I do, it never lasts. I don't hold grudges like I used to. Now, I stick up for people rather than thinking ugly thoughts about them. I can still be shy at first, but I can talk to people I don't know and go out of my way to introduce myself and start up a conversation. I can find the good in everything around me. I went from a not so happy teen to a pretty optimistic, young woman.
It isn't that people can't change. It's that they won't. They don't want to do it for themselves. Some people take a little push from others to get them going. If they can't change for themselves, sometimes, they'll try to change for others. But, it'll only happen if you support them on that journey. If not, it is very easy to fall back into the pit of despair that they were once in.
It takes time. Months. Sometimes years. It doesn't just happen over night or over the course of a couple days. Changes that require our whole personality to switch takes time. The way of thinking is different, and that'll take months to get down.
So, don't ever call someone a lost cause simply because you don't want to take the time and be there for the transformation.
My freshman year of college is when I blossomed into the new me. It was during this time I met a now-very close friend of mine. He was a little antisocial, and not many people got along with him. I didn't know him very well, but a lot of my other friends talked poorly about him, so I didn't really make any effort to get to know him. During the summer after that, I texted him a lot and really got to know him. Sophomore year hit, and we got to be pretty close, hanging out a lot. It turns out, he was this misunderstood guy. I got to see a whole side to him the others never even knew was there. I tried telling them that during a few sessions of their complaining about him. I stood up for him, but they didn't want to see it. My friend's roommate said something that will forever have me flustered about. He said that my friend was 'A lost cause.'
How is my friend a lost cause when the roommate is the one that won't go the extra mile to get to know him? He won't sit down and listen to him like I did. And now, junior year, my friend has more friends than his ex roommate. He got himself a pretty great girlfriend, and our friendship is better than ever, and I'd like to think that he knows me about as well as anyone could.
He notices things that some of my other close friends don't notice about me. He cares about me more than what I am used to, and I will forever be indebted to him for that. I only hope he thinks of me as great of a friend as I think of him.
The point to this post: No one is a lost cause. There could be a whole new side to someone you never knew. You just have to take the time to see it. People can change. But, you got to help them through it and then stick around long enough to witness it.
Long week is going to be long!!!!
My week is super busy! It's my last week at Gordmans because I'm starting my job at the bank on Friday! So freaking excited, by the way! :D
So, here's my schedule of the week and things I need to get done each day. Hopefully I can follow the to do list!
>>Monday>>
Gordmans 7:00-3:30
Walmart 4:00-9:15
Work on Scholarship!!
>>Tuesday>>
School from 10:30 to 3:00
Marketing Quizzes and discussion posts
Business law Quiz, Homework, and case work
Statistics quiz
Finish Scholarship
Study Biology
>>Wednesday>>
Gordmans 7:00-3:30
Walmart 4:00-9:15
Finish anything I didn't get done Tuesday
>>Thursday>>
School from 10:30-10:00
SLEEP!
>>Friday>>
Work at the bank!!!!!!!!
>>Saturday>>
Hopefully work at the bank from 9-2
Walmart 4-9:15
>>Sunday>>
Walmart 10:00- 3:15
Swim Workout.
Then, next week is my spring break. Still gonna be working lots. Just gonna get an afternoon off. Thursday, I won't have anything to do, so not sure how I'm going to spend the day!
I am this bored.
Most of the top 5 are in an order. After that, no order. I'm only going to explain why I love them for my top 5. After that, if I don't say, it's mainly because they're hot.
1. JJ Redick.
My one true love. I've been in love with him for 7 years, and that has never faltered. He has such a big heart. He's in the NBA right now with Orlando. I love that he donates a lot of his money to charity and he does a lot of volunteer work.
2. Jensen Ackles.
Man, I have been in love with him since I saw him on Smallville in Season 4. He's so humble and funny. He gets shy in front of people, and is just a down to earth kind of guy.
3. Misha Collins.
This guy. He is probably one of the funniest people I have ever seen! Just a great guy that loves his fans and his family. I saw him on Supernatural, and I fell in love. Since then, I have went out of my way to watch movies or other shows that he's been in, and he captures each character very well.
4. Nathan Fillion.
Firefly started this all. Then Castle. Man oh man is this man amazing. I love that his favorite character to portray is Malcolm Reynolds from Firefly. HE's definitely my favorite character of his.
5. Tom Welling.
Oh, Tom. He does this awesome Smeagle/Gollum impression. It's great. He hates interviews because he thinks actors should do their jobs and then be allowed to go home and live their lives normally, just how everyone else does it. Smallville started it all for me with this handsome man!
6. Chris Hemsworth
7. Michael Rosenbaum
This man is hilarious
8. Chris Pine
Those eyes!
9. Adam Baldwin
Yes, he comes off as a big, buff, jerk in the movies I have seen (Firefly, Full Metal Jacket), but look at those muscles!
10. Ian Somerhalder
He should actually be in like number 2, but I'm too lazy to go and change it. His eyes are just so gorgeous. And, he's such a good, heartfelt person. He does so much charity and tries to keep the Earth cleaner and green
11. Kevin Costner
12. Jared Padalecki
Surprised I didn't mention him earlier. He is so freaking awesome. He might be a number 6...
13. Cory Monteith
An all around great guy. One of the most down to earth guys you'll meet.
14. Chord Overstreet
15. Rupert Grint
I do believe he is the only ginger to make my list...
16. Tom Felton
17. Orlando Bloom
18. Gideon Emery
19. Joel McHale
20. Christian Bale
Yes, 20 is enough. For now. :)
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Mountain Dew
2. Last phone call: Walmart. I called in sick.
3. Last text message: Cool, see you then. (I'm gonna go watch a movie with him, and we were figuring out the time)
4. Last song you listened to: Home by Michael Buble
5. Last time you cried: No idea. It doesn't happen very often.
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Got back with someone you've broken up with: Nope. I figure you broke up with them for a good reason. It just isn't meant to be.
7. Been cheated on: Yes.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Nope
9. Lost someone special: Yes.
10. Been depressed: Never.
11. Been drunk and threw up: Once.
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Black
13. Silver
14. Blue
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made a new friend: Sure have.
16. Fallen out of love: Haven't even been in love, yet!
17. Laughed until you cried: Today at lunch.
18. Met someone who changed you: I think that everyone you meet and allow in your life changes you in some way. It may not be real noticeable, but it's still there. It's why your life would be different if you hadn't met them.
19. Found out who your true friends were: I have always known who my true friends were.
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Nope.
21. Kissed anyone on your Facebook friend's list: I have with 3 of them.
ABOUT YOU:
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life?
On theO, 2: Rain and Win
On Facebook, all of them but a couple from here. Which, I used to only allow people I have actually met to be my friend on facebook. I'm thinking about going back to that...
23. How many kids do you want?
I want at least 3. Preferably all boys, but if I have to have a girl, I hope she's the baby.
24. Do you have any pets?
Not that live in my apartment with me.
25. Do you want to change your name?
I did when I was in Elementary, but I like my name now.
26. What did you do for your last birthday?
Hung out with my friends a couple days before and then My mom and a friend took me out to a bar to celebrate my 21st.
27. What time did you wake up today?
9:30
28. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Leaving my friend's dorm room and then went down to my other friend's themehouse and hung out for an hour.
29. Name something you cannot wait for:
To graduate college.
30. Last time you saw your Mother:
Couple of minutes ago! My whole family came and visited me for the first time in a few months!
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life?
Nothing. If I changed anything, nothing would be the same, and I would be a completely different person.
32. What are you listening to right now?
Kings and Queens- 30 Seconds to Mars
34. Who is getting on your nerves now?
This guy I talk to who is completely ignorant to the world around him.
35. Most visited webpage:
Tumblr or Facebook.
36.Whats your real name: Nicole, but no one calls me that.
37. Nicknames: Nikki (the most common nickname), Nik (which is what my family calls me), and Cole
39. Zodiac sign: Sagittarius
40. Male or female? FeMale
41. Primary School?
Yes.
42. Secondary School?
Yes.
43. High school/College?
Yes
44. Hair color:
Basically blonde with dark underneath.
45. Long or short:
Long
46. Height:
5'7", so short.
47. Do you have a crush on someone?
Are we talking real crush or fangirl crush?
Real crush, yes.
Fangirl crush, oh my goodness, yes!
48: What do you like about yourself?
My ability to see the good in everything.
49. Piercings:
My ears
51. Righty or lefty:
Righty
FIRST:
52. First surgery:
Tonsil's, I suppose. Though, my first real surgery was for my ACL
53. First piercing:
Ears!
54. First best friend:
Sam.
55. First sport you joined:
It began with basketball, and it ended with basketball.
56. First vacation:
We didn't go on many. My first real, family vacation where everyone was able to go was this past summer when we went to Oceans of Fun and Worlds of Fun.
57. First pair of trainers:
Trainers?
RIGHT NOW:
58. Eating:
Your mom.
59. Drinking:
My spit?
60. I'm about to:
Go to my friend's place to finish watching the Alien movies.
61. Listening to:
Now, it's Every Day- Rascal Flatts
62. Waiting for:
Next semester (When I graduate)
63. I'm feeling:
Happy
YOUR FUTURE:
64. Want kids?
It's what I have always wanted.
65. Get married?
This would be fantastic
66. Career:
Banking. Step 1 of this plan is complete!
YOU PREFER:
67. Lips or eyes:
Eyes. They say so much more about a person.
68. Hugs or kisses:
Hugs. Or both.
69. Shorter or taller:
Taller.
70. Older or Younger:
Older, please!
71. Romantic or spontaneous:
I'm not much of a romantic, but I suppose if they did something really romantic, that would be new for me, and I'd like it. But, spontaneity is fun, too
72. Nice stomach or nice arms:
Stomach. But, arms would be a plus.
73. Sensitive or loud:
In what aspect are we talking about?
Like, I don't want them to be so sensitive that it's easy for me to hurt their feelings. But, I don't want them to be loud because that's just obnoxious.
74. Hook-up or relationship:
Relationship. Why does anyone WANT a hook-up?
HAVE YOU:
75. Kissed a stranger:
Nope.
76. Drank hard Liquor:
It's not very good!
77. Lost glasses/contacts:
I lost my contacts once when I dropped them and couldn't find them.
78. Sex on first date:
One guy tried. Definitely not my thing. You gotta work for that, buddy.
79. Broken someone's heart:
Yes, but I felt really terrible.
80. Been arrested:
Been in a cop car, once. Not arrested, though.
81. Turned someone down:
Ya, there have been a couple of creeps at Walmart that have hit on me.
82. Cried when someone died:
It's about the only time I've ever cried.
83. Fallen for a friend:
Not love love, but liked a lot. One of my friends is whom I have a crush on.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
84. Yourself:
Most days.
85. Love at first sight:
No. I don't honestly think you are in love with someone when you see them for the first time. Lustful, yes. Love, no.
86. Heaven:
Always.
87. Santa Claus:
Duh!
88. Kiss on the first date:
I have done this, so I suppose.
89. Angels:
They are everywhere.
90. God:
He is always with me.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
91. Had more than 1 boyfriend at a time:
At a single time, no. That'd be cheating.
92. Did you sing today?
Nope.
93. Did something illegal?:
Not yet! :3
94. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?
Just to watch and not change anything, Probably to my freshman year of high school. I had some of the best basketball games that year.
95. The moment you would choose to re-live?
Just to relive and not to change: One basketball game my freshman year when I won us a basketball game. It was the most intense game we've ever played.
96. Are you afraid of falling in love?
No. I look forward to it.
97. When was the last time you lied?
This morning. I called in 'sick'
98. Are you usually late, early or right on time?
Early. Always early. It's what's courteous.
99. Would you give your life to save someone else's?
Actually, I have thought about this before. If it was anyone I knew, I'd do it without a second's thought. If it was a stranger, I still think I'd do it without thinking much about it.
100. Are you afraid of posting this as 100 truths?
Not at all!
