I rejoice in what I have and I know that fresh new experiences are always ahead. I greet the new with open arms. I trust life to be wonderful. – Louise Hay
"You can be the worlds greatest hero, or its most mild mannered citizen, the only person who can write your story, is you!" - Jonathan Kent to Clark Kent
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I just got back from a wonderful break at home. I had a really good time with tons of fun and love intermixed. How was all of your Easters?
I come back after four days of absence to a bunch of notifications! Thank you all for your wonderful gifts and messages! It really made me happy to see so many people taking time out of their days to send me a gift. I know it went to more than just me, but knowing I was thought of makes me very happy.
I am truly sorry I don't have the time to do anything in return. I thought maybe putting this post up would do something. You know who you are. I appreciate that I am in your thoughts, and I want you all to know you are in mine. Thank you so much.
Now, tell me about your breaks. How did it go?
Oh my gosh, you guys! I went to the wallpaper homepage, and there was my wallpaper at the top! I've never had one of my creations up there before, as far as I know, anyway! How does one even get their card featured up there?
But, it made me really happy, so I thought I'd share. :)
Everyone, and I mean everyone, has a certain weakness that they wish they could overcome. A weakness that they have had for a long time and just can't overcome, or so it would seem.
My own weakness stemmed from my childhood. I was my dad's little basketball player. In sports, you don't cry. I was fine with that, and so that's how I was raised. Don't get me wrong, I cried growing up. Many a time. But, it was always after my dad got done yelling at me and then I cried by myself. None of my friends have ever seen me cry. I just find it a weakness I myself don't want others to see of myself.
Now, I don't judge others for crying. If they want to cry, that's fine. I'll be here for you in any way I possibly can. The problem, and my biggest weakness, is that I don't know how to handle other people crying. In high school, I had a friend that had a boyfriend, whom I didn't particularly like, and sometimes he would make her cry, but she wouldn't tell me until way after the fact about it. When I asked her why she hadn't told me sooner, she said it was because she knew it made me uncomfortable when people around me cry.
I just do not know how to deal with it. What do I do for the person? Cry with them? Hug them? Pat them on the back? Tell them everything will be ok? My parents never had to do that for me, nor did my friends, so I had no experience to pull from. I was just thrust into an unknown situation, and I didn't know how to wade through it.
Now, in college, I still have a big problem with it. One of my best friends didn't tell me that her father had called her worthless and that the profession she wanted to go into wasn't a real job. She cried a lot, but instead of texting me or calling me or coming to me, she texted someone else.
I'm glad that she found someone she could confide in and have be there for her, but it would be a lie if I said it didn't hurt that it wasn't me. I love my friends with my whole heart, and I want to be there for them in every single way that I can. But, if you don't confide in me, I'll never know.
When I asked her about it, she said it was because she knew crying made me uncomfortable. I feel like I'm a bad friend if my friends don't want to confide in me because of that. I know, in her own way, she was looking out for me, but I can't help but feel badly about it.
I want to get better at this, and I know I can with the right mindset. But, how does one get better in such an area when I can't practice it? But, it's really not about me. This is about the people I care about. So in truth, this whole post is rather selfish of me.
Anyway, I'd like to hear from you guys. What's your weaknesses that you want to do better with?
