It's been awhile since I've been on theO for an extended period of time. Been kind of crazy! But, I'm here now, and I'm gonna post in all my worlds and rps either today or tomorrow. :)
So, here's what's new with me if anyone cares.
1. Joe and I are still together. Been interesting. He's still on the fence. And by that, I mean, he's not sure he can open himself up to someone again. He's done it and been burned on more than one occasion. He has depression, anxiety, is bored with his life, and can't wait to move away from here (he's going to do it as soon as he can.) The hard part of the moving thing is that he doesn't want me to come with, and he doesn't want to do long distance. So, what does that leave us? Nothing.
So, I'm hoping he'll get his shit figured out. I don't want to wait around forever for him to make up his mind. I love him a lot, but I don't want to be in a relationship that is going nowhere when I can be out there finding the one that does want to go the distance. So, I'm not really sure what to do right now. I'm backing off a little. I haven't been texting him first, nor have I been planning everything and inviting myself over. I want him to take initiative a bit. And for the most part he has, so that's a good sign. Sigh. I don't really know right now. Advice is welcome.
2. My cousin is getting married November 3, so like two weeks. I had to go home last weekend to get fitted into the dress. The dress she had showed me months ago with this all black, silky dress that had pockets and was actually very pretty. what I tried on was not that. It was brown and orange. Probably one of the ugliest dresses I've ever worn. To top it off, I have to wear cowboy boots. But, not even real cowboy boots. These are orange and brown, too. It's terrible. I'd rather run down the aisle naked than wear this horrid outfit. But, I have to wear it and put on a smile.
I'm not even sure why she asked me to be in the wedding. I mean, we haven't really talked for years. Only on holidays. And, usually the whole time, her mom is teasing me about not having a boyfriend or whatever. And, her brother is the one that molested me when I was 7 (Him being 15). We used to be close as kids, and in elementary school. In school, she'd get picked on, and I'd be the one sticking up for her. But, once High School hit, we drifted. I'm thinking I was a last resort, someone to fill a spot since she has no friends. But, oh well.
3. Also, for my cousin, I had to go to her bachelorette party. We went to dinner and then to a bar. The dinner was great. There was only three of us there because the maid of honor and the other one freaked out because they couldn't bring their boyfriends, so they weren't even ever going to show, but they got their shit together and came to the bar, where they proceeded to get my cousin drunk. And, I mean drunk. You know how in the movies, the drunks are falling all over everything, throwing up, can't walk, all up in your face, etc. Ya, she was worse than that. At the end of the night, she couldn't walk. She had to be carried out of the place. She was so bad, we got kicked out. And this bar is so hard to get kicked out of. To top it off, all my old classmates walked in as she was making a racket. I have never been so embarrassed. This wedding is going to be a disaster. I don't like the maid of honor and that other girl because they just left my cousin there. They got her so drunk and then just left us to take care of her. I don't like her family, and I'm going to know no one else. Joe can't go with me, and none of my other guy friends can go either. So, I'll be alone. I just can't wait for this to be done.
4. The golf course job is done for me, so I have Sundays off, now! I'm so excited. Not sure what I'm going to do with my time!
5. I'm going to be getting a bigger bed soon. Like a standard or a queen. I can't decide. I'm pumped! No more rolling into the walls!
6. I'm in a country genre kick. It's interesting. Been listening to it nonstop for the past two days. They tell some of the best stories, though.
7. Gonna have a much needed girls night in tonight. I'm excited.
So, that's about it. Get me caught up with what's been going on with you guys!
